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she's married! ;)

2012-01-13T01:02:00.001+08:00

Alhamdulillah. I went to Aimi n Rehan's solemnization ceremony just now. Everything went well. I carried the last "dulang" and it was pretty heavy ;)

Dengan sekali lafaz, Aimi Nadia sah menjadi isteri kepada Syed Rehan Shah Bukhary :)

My du'as and prayers for them in going through the new phase of their lives. There's no such thing as perfect marriage or perfect spouse but if they learn to treat, guide and love each other with patience and take our beloved prophet Rasulullah S.A.W as their role model, inshaAllah they are in the right path and Allah S.W.T shall grant them Jannah in hereafter. InshaAllah.

Cepat timang anak. Nanti Aunty Ain nak cubet2 pipi anak korang ;)

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New Zealanders

2012-01-10T03:43:00.001+08:00

Macam mana nak tdo bile anak dara 2 orang ni asik pasang lagu korea kuat2 ????

Kuantan, here i come!! ;))))

Pffftttt~~

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now u're gone..

2012-01-09T23:37:00.001+08:00

"kak ain..tolong amik kat sunway..taxi xde la.." ~ 20minutes later, he was in my car. I gave him one heck of a lecture. Asik melepak jek. All he did was just 'hihihi'. As we reached his house, "thanks kak ain. Love u".

"kak ain buat ape tu? Jom lepak mamak jom". I picked him up at his house and went straight to mamak. Usually we ended up having another company joining us. Yes, he was THAT famous. It seemed everyone in Subang knew him.

"kak ain, mama ajak dtg uma suh mkn". I replied "ala kak ain busy sikit la". He will say "ala kak ain memanjang busy tau. Xpela. Next time k. Love u". And i always hung up the phone without replying his L word.

Ramadhan. I went to Bazar in SS 18. I heard someone called my name. I turned around and it was him. We talked for few minutes. The last thing he said to me "nanti bukak puasa sama2 kat umah eh. Janji tau". I said "k inshaAllah. Nanti call k". As usual he said "love u kak ain". I just smiled, waved and left.

Then few days later, he left us. He left the dunya. He left us. He's gone ='(

He was my little brother. He was my other half. He knew everything about me. He called my parents mama papa. He was there for me during my toughest times. He was the first person i called whenever i have gud news to share. He was my little brother. And now he's gone.

And today, January 9th 2012, i'm having another tough times. I called his mom. I need to let this burden out of my chest. I cried like a little baby over the phone. Talked to her make me realize how much i've been missing him....i'm dealing with such a big issue. No one knows except his mom. Coz i know that only she'll understand my situation. Because of him, i managed to build such wonderful relationship with his family throughout these years. Alhamdulillah.

Al fatihah~

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pintaku..

2012-01-07T21:43:00.001+08:00

Ya Allah Ya Rabb..

Kiranya dia adalah yang terbaik untukku, agamaMu, keluargaku dan keturunanku, satukanlah kami dengan perhubungan yang halal dan diredhaiMu Allah..

Namun kiranya dia bukan yang terbaik untukku, agamaMu, keluargaku dan keturunanku, pisahkanlah kami demi mencari keredhaanMu..

Sesungguhnya, hidup kami di bumiMu semata2 mencari keredhaanMu..

Amin..

P/s: "Tu sebab dari perspektif Islam, tunang tak digalakkan..bimbang jadi fitnah..even kalau keluar bertiga ditemani kawan, Allah tau apa yg ada dlm hati kita..nikah yang terbaik..Allah janji akan terbuka pintu rezeki seseorg tu bila dah nikah.." ~ words of wisdom from my 20year old cousin..thanks abang..i know i can count on u when it comes to all this.. :') ~

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.endless hopes.

2011-12-15T01:54:00.001+08:00

Sukar utk dilafazkan

Perasaan gulana selubung diri

Aku hanya mampu berdoa

Allah beri petunjuk utk mengatur diri

Kerna diriku sepi

Sampai kapan harus ku lalui

Keperitan tidak dipeduli

Niat baik disalaherti

Lantas membenci diri

Demi hidup harus dihadapi

Benar

Mungkin benar

Kau mencorak hidup sendiri

Demi kepuasan naluri hati

Namun diriku tetap disini

Tetap menyendiri

Tetap sepi

We shall do the best

Be part of it or be gone

I shall wait till my heart says to

Should we be apart

That's when my heart stop hoping

Hoping for a sign

Positive ones

Affirmative order for me to stay

Till then i shall wait

Heart is no stone

Hard and hopeless

Fragile indeed but strong enough

To face evil world

Waiting is blissful

Only with hopes

But empty ones leaves me cold

A sign for me to take charge

Of my own little world

Questions to be left unanswered

Worries to be forgotten

Tears to be held back

We live, we hope, we hold

To a brighter future it is

Heart, please do not stop

Hoping the love shall sustain

Should my heart fails to stay

Should my heart fails to feel

Should my heart fails to love

Then,

Thousand of miles seperates us

Heading the right path for both

Lesson learned

Not to give all

But to give the best out of everything

Sepi temanku

Sepi hatiku

Sepi hati ini...

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money + free time = vacation

2011-12-10T13:13:00.002+08:00

VACAY YA'LL!!!

I LOVE travelling..

After i got back from New Zealand, my family and I went to Langkawi..my nephews were excited as they hopped on the plane.. :) families + travel = priceless :)

Next year on Feb, i'm gonna babysit my 1st nephew for a week..my parents, abg long and my sis in law will be leaving to Turkey..oh meeeenng!! nak ikot! tapi tak leh :(

Then on May, my friends and I will be going for backpacking to Chiang Mai..yeaaahhH!!! a week ya'll :) might be going to Laos as well but still under discussion..

The following month, my family n myself off to Bandung..shoppiiinnnggggg sampai lebam! a week jugak.. :)))

And that is all for next year's itinerary inshaAllah :) Dengan izin Allah, selamat la sampai ke destinasi2 ni sume..inshaAllah... :)

*might be leaving to NZ again end of next year till middle of 2013*

k till next time..wasalam~

p/s: Hai Kak Ain, colleague Syahim..Ain dgr cite Kak Ain siap baca blog Ain ni..heee :)

Oh New Zealand..

2011-11-28T06:55:00.001+08:00

Salam..

Hohoi! Lame bapak tak hapdate blog ni haaaa. Oh oh oh. Berhabuk sudah.

I just got back from my one-month-holiday ;) i went to New Zealand and indeed it was a remarkable experience for me. Travelling ALONE, from point A to point B then to point C, experiencing unforgettable scary and eerie frequent turbulance in Wellington, which btw known as Windy City and making loads of friends during my 11 hours on board. 11 jam okay journey from KL to Christchurch. Haruslah cramp bontot kalau tak bergerak2 dalam plane kan. Tu tak termasuk another 1 hour domestic flight from Christchurch to Wellington plak. As i arrived in Wellington, went straight for my luggage pick up, i saw a lady with 3 kids with hijab waived at me and shouted "kak nurul!!!!". I smiled and that was when i finally realized that "i'm in NZ baybeehh". =)

For the first time in life, aku pegang snow!! ;) Alhamdulillah. NZ is truly a beautiful country. Very clean, relax and calm environment, quiet. The people? Friendly! I love it! I had a quick chat with the guy working at Mount Ruapehu, the place we went for snowboarding/skiing. He was so friendly and nice, he taught us on how to snowboard for first-timers, all the necessary safety measures n bla bla bla. Muka garang, dreadlocks bagai tapi sangat baik.

During my one-month staying there, i've never encountered residents yg racist ke ape bagai. I mean, mula2 sceptical la kan. Pakai tudung ni dorang akan pandang serong ke? Langsung TAK! pegi la mane2 kedai pun, tak kisah besar kecik, the shop owner or cashier greet dgn riangnya. Borak2. Best sgt.

Then town dia pukul 530pm dah tutup. Sunyi je. Memang tak nampak mane2 teenagers yg melepak mcm budak2 melayu kita melepak depan Pavi. Tenang je. 530pm dah tutup kedai! Memanglah sunyi. So bila town tutup awal, the people end up balik rumah and spend quality time with the family. Bagus kan?

There was 1 night bila we went out for my cousin's prize giving ceremony, otw balik at around 930pm, nampak 6 org laki berdiri kat tepi jalan. 3 laki belah kiri and 3 laki belah kanan. Bila kete kami lalu, dorang angkat tangan ala2 sapaan gitu. Rupanye dorang tgh main passing out rugby. Tu la aktiviti remaja. No lepaking but sports number 1. Cuba mcm kat Malaysia ni, jogging or cycling tgh mlm sure kene rompak xpun rogol xpun kne simbah asid. Tak selamat. Sedih!

Other than that, NZ cantik coz dorang jaga nature dorang. Bukit bukau still there. Takde pun nampak togel2 kene tarah oleh orang bernafsukan duit nak buat 1001 projek bgai. Kalo kat malaysia ni, menteri pantang nampak tanah, abis sume dibogelkan utk buat macam2, kononnye utk rakyat. Pfffttt.

Cuaca sejuuuukk je. Kadang2 12°c, kadang2 16°c. Sentiasa pakai stokin, baju atleast 2 lapis. Kalau keluar outing, siap kene pkai hooded fur coat tu. Sejuk! But since my cousins are used to it, dorang relax jek pkai thermal n trench. Tu je. Mungkin aku kulit orang kampung kan, tu yg berselubung tu. Heee.

Syukur alhamdulillah. I had the chance to go there. Dapat flight ticket murah, makan tempat tinggal ditanggung. Pegi sana berjalan jek. Shopping. Buat outdoor activities.

Sangat sangat sangat sangat sangat happy. Doa nak main snow je, bila kat sana Allah turunkan snow depan mata. Walaupun for about 20-30mins snowing tu, tapi rasa bersyukur sangat2. Doa supaya tak selsema sbb cuaca sejuk sangat kan, tapi Allah bagi kesihatan optimum terus. Doa supaya dilindungi dari anasir jahat, tapi bukan saja dilindungi, Allah tunjukkan orang yang baik2 pada aku.

I wish i could migrate there. Sebab nak anak2 rasa life yg simple macam tu. Penah skali, kami dah plan nak go somewhere over the weekend. Then last minute my uncle's big boss cakap ada meeting on friday. In which plan kami utk gerak on that friday gak. My uncle told the bos "i'm sorry but i dun think i can attend the meeting. I've made plan with my kids to bring them out over the weekend". Then my uncle's boss tu cakap " oh really. Nevermind then. We'll held our meeting the following week. No matter what, family comes first". HAH????? Seriously??? Ya Allah. Indahnya. Dulu aku keje maxis, off day pun kene kacau, mc pun dipaksa masuk keje.

InshaAllah. One day aku akan pegi sana lagi. That's my promise...to myself. Moga2 Allah makbulkan doaku. Ameen.

Kdahbye.

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It ends now..

2011-08-22T08:25:00.001+08:00

Assalammualaikum and well hello people *gaya anwar hadi*..

I've been neglecting you my dear simplynurulainnoorafudin *bapak pnjg name* for quite some time and i'm sorry for that.

Anyhow, just a few quick updates. Kak Na(arwah abbil's sis in law) just delivered a cute adorable pipi-mintak-kene-cubit baby girl. Awww. Baby Ramadhan. *Arwah Abbil passed away on the month of Holy Ramadhan too*. Isn't it unique for Allah to arrange all this? He took 1 life, He "replaced" with 1 new life. Syukran for everything. Second update is my contract ends 31st August 2011 and this coming Thursday will be my last day of working inshaAllah. Though at times I've doubts with the decision i made, but I'm sure this is for the best. Gaji RM4000 tapi unhappy, what for? Nak pergi jumpa Dia for Zohor pun pukul 4ptg, how's that? It's okay Maxis, Paracell and Huawei, i got to say no to you guys this time. Ada rezeki utkku di tempat lain barang kali.

Throughout my journey working there,Syahim has been listening to my endless working issues/problems. Asal balik je memanjang complain. Penah berazam dalam diri utk taknak pikirkan sgt but i just can't. I'm fine with my workload but the people I'm dealing with every single day tu yg payah. I've tried my very best to confront, to talk, to advise but nothing seemed to be working out.

Syahim said "it's not easy to get a job with that kind of salary. So are sure you do not want to renew your contract?". I've been hearing rumors that they want to give me a higher position. With that position,gaji sure naik,betul? But can the big salary beats the other factors; stress,working with *%§?!@ people, etc? O Allah, please guide me.

I decided to leave. For real. I'm leaving my department, WFM this Thursday. My parents, my brothers n Syahim helped me with the decision. They never asked me to stay nor leave. They just gave me eye-opener statement gituuuu. InshaAllah, ada rezeki kat tempat lain ke. Leh gi umrah bawak mama papa.

Mom Dad, thank you for being there for me through thick and thin. Thanks sebab urut bahu adik bila bdn adik sengal2. Thanks sbb bersabar dgr adik esmos cite macam2. Thanks for everything.

Yang, thanks sbb dgr ayg bebel SETIAP HARI, for a year! Ngadu macam2. Thanks for stopping me from doing bad things to them *you know I'm capable of doing anything when my patience reaches the limit*. Thank you sbb layan msg2 ayg yg merapu2 bila stucked kat jam balik dari TM meeting. Thank you sbb layan n lepak family ayg sedangkan ayg x lik keje lagi time tu.

Thanks for everything,people. I'm grateful for EVERY SINGLE things. *siyes rase cam artis skang*

Kdahbye~

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helpless

2011-07-08T01:41:00.001+08:00

Kepada anda yg mmbace blog saya yang hina ni,
Saya mohon sgt agar anda dapat same2 doakan kesejahteraan bapa rakan karib saya..
Bapanya dikatakan kritikal akibat saluran darah diotak pecah..
Kurang pasti minor or major stroke..
Plz doakan bersama..
Saya berasa helpless..
X sanggup or xnak or xleh tido..
Takot kalo2 tertido n xdgr bunyi msg dari Ida..
If she needs me,kul 4 5pg pon sanggup redah..
Same2 doakan ye rakan2ku..
Hargai sgt2..

Ida..bykkan berdoa..Dia tempat kite mengadu..
Segala yg berlaku pasti ada hikmahnye..
Ye aku tau..easier said than done..
Tapi kite hambaNya perlu redha dgn stiap perkara yg berlaku..
Im here for u at all times..

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lunch..

2011-07-01T19:40:00.001+08:00

Went for lunch..
With Tini, kak Fazilah n Fafa..
Venue: Empire Gallery..
Overall: Awesome possum.. =)

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..june..

2011-06-28T20:31:00.001+08:00

Its about to end..yes i know i still have to fast for 7days..darn..im a big time proctastinator..puasa 6 aritu tak buat..blerghh..

July is just in few days' time..dat means i have another 2months before my contract ends..do i want to continue? I dunno..havent decide on dat yet..i love d money but d people inside it that makes me think twice(or more)..

Leaving on October..duit dah cukup ke? Im planning to go there, with my pocket money..i mean, trying my best not to touch a single cent from my savings..every month, i put aside certain amount of my salary to my savings..so d balance,kumpul2 utk bawak for October nnt..but sempat ke nak kumpul? Don buat hal plak lately ni..byk pkai duit..

I dun quite understand d purpose of my entry dis time..kill d time sambil tunggu turn nk mandi kot..hehe..k dh bye..family outing time..minggu ni balik kampung n cant wait for burger double special rm 2!! Sumpah terbaik!!

K tata..Assalamualaikum~

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mama and i

2011-06-27T23:12:00.003+08:00

Mama : Assalam. Apa khabar? Ain sihat hari ini? Mama dan family sihat sihat saja.

Me : Wasalam Ma. Ain sihat fizikal. Tapi hati kurang sihat. Asyik teringat arwah. Tak tau kenape. Mama macam tau je hati ain tgh tak tenang.

Mama : Banyak banyak bersabar ya. Mama semenjak arwah pergi mama tak pernah mimpikannya tapi baru baru ini mama bermimpi arwah bersama mama tanpa berbicara. Mungkin kita terlalu rindukannya itu yg membuatkan kita teringat dan termimpi.

~zikir munajat~

*sms conversation with mama*

Abbil

2011-06-26T01:53:00.001+08:00

I loved u..
I missed u..
I'm crying now and i can't stop..
='(

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No Title

2011-06-01T21:34:00.002+08:00

Lately, I can’t seem to control my anger. I easily flipped, snapped. I was losing it. Why? Why? Why? Is the workload is just too much for me? Or is it simply me who can’t organize myself well?

I’ve been bombarded with all kinds of questions. Be it personal or work related. Where is my life leading me to? Am I up for new work challenge? When am I planning to settle down? The last question really got me puzzled. I’m no desperado and I’m not saying those who settled down at their early age were desperate or something, but to those who don’t even know what is my favorite color(just to show how unrelated you are to me, or how far of you to be called as my bff), just shut the heck up, zip it and lemme throw away the bloody key.

Why can't you stop asking me that kind of question? And stop making nonsense remarks like "oh you are waiting for a filthy rich guy to surprise you with a 24-carat gold Tiffany ring is it? I’m sure you are that kind of girl who can’t survive living with a poof husband-to-be". Oh my. Hello Mr. Fat Ugly Old Man, can you just disappear from my sight in 2 secs, cause' if you don't, I will definitely not gonna hesitate to drag that fat ugly body and face of yours down the road and let the 25-meters trailer "rape" you. I can be REALLY nasty when you push me to the limit, and the last thing you want is seeing me as your worst nightmare.

"Ain, the figures for the report are wrong", "Ain, make sure we lock the meeting with TM this Thursday", "Ain, Boss wants the list of cancelled customers by today", yada yada yada yada. Try poke me with a needle, see whether it bleeds, if not, then clearly I'm a robot and you can "use" me 24/7. Please help me to help you. If I'm doing MOST of the work, for sure there's a possibility of human error to occur. Common sense. Haihhh..2 of my bosses left Maxis yesterday, and I want to submit my resume to them. If they can provide me atleast 30% better than what I'm having here in Maxis, then why not? Betul tak?

Why am I writing this entry? (-_-)'' K dah bye..

Utk anak Puan Nora n Pacik Usop

2011-05-25T08:49:00.002+08:00

SUHAIDAH MOHD YUSUF!

ade aku ckp aku syg ko?

xde eh?

ha meh sini aku btau..

AKU SAYANG KO WEH! ('',)

smoga ko cepat kawen..

leh aku buatkan wedding cake ko..

nyahaha..

moga ape ko hajatkan, tercapai..

jadilah anak yg solehah..

tu yg plg penting..

sila ajak aku kua june ni sbb aku cuti weekends..

k dah bye~!

Babysit and Paris and Handphone and Contract

2011-05-07T12:37:00.004+08:00

mama, papa, abg ngah and kak ngah will be leaving to China tonight..and that little kiddo is staying with us for a week..let's pray that he'll be nice..budak tu baru sthn 8bln weh! definitely i'm gonna have Panda's eyes, bgn tgh mlm buatkan susu utk budak tu..planning to bring him to the playground everyday, pergi jumpa kak long kat hulu langat, bawak dia gi jalan2, etc..just harap everything's fine..applied AL just to babysit him..but on Thursday, masuk keje lik..xpela..dapat jage 4days pon cun dah tu..same2 doakan utk saya please!

the other day, i went out with kak nurissa n ayu..while enjoying our Kenny Roger's quarter chicken meal, kak nurissa's mom called from Paris..aunty is the PR pon kat sane, after she got married with a French guy..then while talking, the plan of us going to Paris just popped up..PARIS!! nak weh!!! leh buat tour gi Europe terus! ;) but gonna cost me loaaaaadddddssss of cash!!! mahu tapi sengkek..then chaneeee?? i freakingly love travelling..so after check all the tix kat sume airlines, terus rase down..expensive sgt.. =( kak nurissa ckp better gi bulan 2 or 3 or 4 next year..gi winter pon cm xgune..sbb terlalu sejuk smp nk kua uma pon xleh..so better gi time summer ke, autumn ke, spring ke..tix for March is slightly cheaper compared to Feb and April's..but i can't go on March..my parents n siblings will be going to Istanbul for a week..so for sure kene babysit si gendot tu kan..so either Feb o April je la..but tix mahal!!!!!!!!!!! k xyah nk bajet stress sgt..just hope MAS ke, Etihad ke, Emirates ke, AirAsia ke, baek hati nk buat big deals yg super kaw..go airlines go!!!

rase cm nk beli fon baru sbb fon samsung ni sucks..really makes me feel wanna throw em in a smelly trash bin..anyone nak blanje me garmin asus? pretty plssss..

this June my company suppose to get back to us on whether they wanna renew our contract or not..my contract finishes on August..if they wanna renew, they have to increase our salary yaww..atleast 20-25%..muahahahaha..baru gaji leh start dgn nombor 4 lak..inshaAllah..

pray hard for everything..moga2 everything's sailing smoothly..

p/s: "bulan 10 adik dtg sini, kalo adik nak go for all the rides and shopping etc, i think if you bring $1,000, kire dah sedap la tu...".. $1,000????? *telan air liur jap*

it's May now..

2011-05-02T19:50:00.001+08:00

it's May now..

so.....................

5 months to go, bebeh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ;))))))))

can't wait! weeeeee~

drainedddddddddddddd..

2011-04-21T07:22:00.002+08:00

i am mentally drained and physically tired..

i need my time off..

i hope May will be good to me..

i can't wait for August (Raya!!!)

and i'm looking forward for October, like so badly!

tumblr

2011-02-26T15:53:00.002+08:00

I've created my tumblr account for quite some time..only lately I started to reblog my thoughts.. =)

click here if u wanna visit my tumblr..

enjoy..

breakdown

2011-01-14T12:23:00.003+08:00

saya cuma nk mintak awk jadi 'air' ketika saya menjadi api..saya cuma nk mintak awk jadi kekuatan saya le saya menjadi kelemahan awk..saya cuma nak awk tego saya baek2 le saya buat salah..sbb kadang2 saya sendiri x sedar dgn kesalahan yg saya buat tu..saya cuma mintak awk bimbing saya..bimbing saya menjadi sorang yg lebih baek...kalau segala percakapan saya salah, TEGO..kalau segala pertanyaan saya tak kene cara, TEGO..sbb saya xkan sedar kesilapan yg saya buat! instead of menegur, awk marah2 saya..saya ni bukan kawan2 laki awk..saya ni bukan adik2 awk..saya ni just sorang pompuan yg sygkan awk sgt2..kite penah bincang hal ni b4 dis..tapi nape xde perubahan? asal kat joho je, terus berubah..n trust me, its not about u being busy with your studies..its about how u treating me.. pasal pompuan tu just perkara kecik yg malas saya nk pk..isu yg lebih besar ialah attitude masing2..kalau perangai xberubah,sampai bila2 pon xkn berubah..

"if adik rase this relationship is worth fighting for, then fight for it..u have to change n he has to change..its not only about u, its not only about him, its about both of u..mengalah..mengalah..mengalah bukannye bermaksud dia btol or dia menang..it shows u r fighting for the relationship..bila adik rase adik dah cube fight, for certain period of time, but dia still buat xtau, not picking up the fon, not replying ur smses, and he's not doing anythg, then it's time for you to really go..mungkin ada pompuan laen yg sanggup jadi 'air' utk dia buat selama2nye..lelaki ade ego dia dik, but perempuan ada tahap kesabaran yg tertentu..if he's not making an effort to save the relationship, then just go..if dia buat effort tu, walaupon sket, consider about it..cuba dulu, then tgk camne..pray to Him..berdoa byk2 supaya Allah terangkan hati masing2..just trust Him..berusaha n tawakal..but adik kene ingat, be prepared.."

='(
saya akan buat effort tu..sbb saya sygkan awk..kalau masih xde pape, saya akan mengalah......

ntah lah

2011-01-13T20:29:00.004+08:00

byk sgt bnde yg jadi sampai saya stress sgt2..

- saya kene saman polis..cnfirm beratus kene..
- almost got into an accident..mmg driver waja tu bongek!
- severe back pain-->mama kate sbb stress terlampau..nxt wk ade appointment dgn si tukang urut traditional..
- toothache yg xsetel2..perlukan teman gi dentist sbb sy penakot jumpe ape2 doc..
- working environment yg kadang2 xbest..buatkan saya nk jerit kat dpn muke2 dorang yg cam cipan tu! dasar orang tua gatal!
- difficulties in breathing semakin kerap! sehari sampai 2,3 times..-->mama kate stress n angin..
- saya patah kaki..
- saya dah single dan saya sgt xsuke...

perubahan yg berlaku;

- saya menjauhi dunia facebook yg maha menghancurkan sesuatu perhubungan tu..
- saya terpakse pkai no. maxis..n i dun intend to give my no. to anyone..kalau ada ape2, cntact saya di--> nurulainnoora@gmail.com..
- blog ni menjadi medium saya utk express/cite sgale bnde yg jadi..i really dun feel like talking to anyone coz nnt bile start cite, sure 'banjir'..
- saya jadi workaholic sbb xnk duk melangok stress pk mslh peribadi..
- saya kembali menjadi gadis yg sgt gloomy dan less talkative..
- konklusinye; saya terlampau stress..

p/s: saya benci awak sgt2 sbb saya syg awk sgt2..

lambat

2011-01-10T18:53:00.001+08:00

sekarang pukul 7.00 petang, dan wa masih lagi kat office..

wa nak balik, mandi, solat dan tidur..

go.freaking.away.from.me

2011-01-10T00:32:00.002+08:00

saya

tak

suka

orang

panas

baran

...................

kesabaran

saya

menipis

..........................

your

hurtful

words

are

killing

me

.................................

pieces.don't.fit.anymore. Vol. II

2011-01-06T11:15:00.011+08:00

I must say, James Morisson is one of my favourite singers. He has the husky-sexy voice that surely makes me "fly high" everytime I listen to his songs. Anyhow, my all time favourite song would be "PIECES DON'T FIT ANYMORE". *now it's time to reminisce*

I had quite a hell journey of a relationship before. My bffs gave me tonnes of hints, advices, swears, etc, yet I was still living in denial. The fear of breaking up the almost-2years-relationship has controlled my judgement in making decisions. All the bad things he did, all the hurtful things he said, I just can't seem to swollow it and digest to my perfectful-working-mind.

In my heart, I ALWAYS believe that one fine day he'll realize and make some changes to himself and our relationship. I've been convincing*lying* myself every single day weh! pathetic bukan? Surely is. I'm not perfect either. But I believed that I gave my 100% to make the relationship works. I've my flaws too. But I did changed. So-called for the better of that *crappy* relationship. My mom was the least happiest person. She saw the pain in my eyes. My mummy also can't help it but to feel sorry for me. But all of us know 1 thing for sure, every single thing happens for a reason.

One fine Friday, I don't know what got into me. I just decided to call it quit. Once and for all. He begged, he cried, he questioned. But I just put my feet on the ground. That was it. Enough. Finire. Aufhöre. That was when James Morrison's Song "Pieces don't fit anymore" kept on playing in my mp3. Press repeat memanjang. I definitely vandalized the repeat button ;)

Allah SWT works in mysterious ways. Allah SWT knows everything. Allah SWT plans everything. Allah SWT knows best. Allah SWT sent me someone. To mend a broken heart. Syukran jazilan. He's there for me. Through thick and thin. I value our relationship. From negative to positive. From bad to good. He guides me, to be a strong person. He teaches me, to be good muslimah. We encourage each other, to be better than before and not repeating the same mistakes. I'm glad he's with me. Next month would be our 2nd anniversary. Bukan wedding anniversary la kan. Heee...

Family, friends, brothers and sisters out there, I would be more grateful and thankful if you guys could include me in your du'as. May Allah bless us all. With prosperity and health. Amin =)

miss me much? ;)

2010-12-19T14:57:00.005+08:00

Assalammualaikum W.B.T..

miss me much? ;) it's been soooooooo freaking long till we last met..i guess working life starting to take it's toll on me..for those who don't know, currently i'm working in Maxis Subang Hitech..it's like 10 minutes drive from my house..kalau lapar, lik uma for lunch..hee..save budget kan..alhamdulillah the pay pon okay =) ni semua rezeki..million thanks to Kak Intan...she was the one who introduced me to this job..yang best nye, I'm starting to have my own saving account!! say "JYEEEAAHHH!!" everyone! ;) I have my own maybank account..for all kinds of money transaction..but the other day, my bf and I went to open up another account and that account is only for my monthly saving..nak kawen kan..lol ;p kene ada saving, sbb namo bersusah2 kemudian..

another update is, ayu had her miscarriage the other day..it's good that it happens now than later..the miscarriage is one of the signs that her body is not strong enough to have the baby..plus, with her history of period pain, stomach cramps, etc, are clearly gonna have effects to the baby..Allah loves the baby more than we do..my brother and ayu are strong enough to deal with this..Allah duga kita stakat mana yg kita mampu menerimanya..He knows best..so now ayu is going through overhaulin'..cewah..cm kete lak kan..hee takde la..mama asks her to take lingzhi, high dose some more, just to flush out all the unnecessary things in her body..inshaAllah, the body become stronger and healthier, and so the coming baby =)

SAYA GRADUAN TERHEBAT!!! takde la nk hebat sgt kn..bese2 je..shukran..dh la duduk dgn geng puaka..haaaa..geng puaka tu namenye UMME UMAIMAH and HAIRINA ZAINAL..we were all puaka enough to say shitty things during the ceremony..umme big boss dia..heee..syahim came all the way from Johor!! ceh bunyi cam Johor tu kat overseas kan..but still, he was in the midst of final exams, but managed to come ;) thanks yang! mummy was there too..she was in Malaysia 4 2weeks then flew back to NZ..mama papa pon dtg..gave my flowers weh! almaklumlah, mane penah receive bunga b4 this..hahaha..syahim gave me a prezzie ;) SOLVILetTITUS watch!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (k dah jgn teruja sgt)..thanks b..love u! =))

i think i shud go..xleh nk membebel byk2 sgt...till we meet again inshaAllah..

*emmmuuuaahhh*

p/s: I'm leaving on a jetplane ;) soon..inshaAllah =)

this feeling...

2010-10-08T07:24:00.002+08:00

i

am

not

okay,

this

is

so

disheartening

ini kami..

2010-09-06T21:05:00.003+08:00

ini kami...
mohammad syahim bin khairuddin dan nurul ain binti noorafudin...
doakan hubungan kami berpanjangan...
kerna bagiku, dia adalah yg terbaik utk diriku serta keluargaku...
rupa dan harta tidak ku pandang...
budi bahasa yg disandang...
kiranya dia baik bagi keluargaku...
maka baik jugalah bagi diri ku yg serba kekurangan ini...
...................
.............
........
....

busy schedule

2010-08-21T17:08:00.003+08:00

Assalammualaikum W.B.T...

quick updates!
now it's 5.10 pm..while waiting 4 my 2 bacens to arrive, i thought why not blogging instead? yeehhaa!~

ysterday - it was an awesome day..went to Putrajaya..besar gaban bazar ramadhan korang weh! sume org2 gomen pon gi situ kot..crampy mampy tau x..then buka kat uma puchong..haihh..poor Muhd..acu doakan moga Allah sembuhkan Muhd cepat ye..

today - fmly along dtg singgah tadi..amek product kaklong..aduyai dat little sepet nephew of mine..gewammm!! omel sgt!! "acu2, tgk abg ade kete memot" translation--> acu2, abg ade kete remote..alaaaa kiuuttttt..pelat lagi apek kecik ni ;) tgh tunggu bacens..nk buka kat Cyberjaya..together with Firdaus n Meor..

22/8 - thinkin n plannin to go to Sg. Buloh..tgk la lu..xsure lagi..

23/8 - 24/8 - beli barang2 nk buat kuih..mama dh beli nenas 6 biji!!! kuih tart punye pasal..mcm nk niaga..hee..klo sempat, leh buat terus kuih tu..buat sket2 la..

25/8 - 26/8 - BALIK KAMPUNG YA'LL!!!! ;))

27/8 - a day with cuzzies ;) amna, mira n ika..

28/8 - off we go to airport..anta my darlings..US weh! sthn aku xjumpe korg..grrr...korg lupe aku siap korg..korg lik t aku siat2 kulit korg n rendam dlm air sabun..yeehhaa..brutal x? ;) i love u guys =')

29/8 - puchong lagi! dis tym uma along lak ;)

then after dat, bz buat kuih raya je =) no bj ry dis yr..duit tarak!

4/9 - pegi Nilai amik sarung cushion n langsir baru =) hoho..

* kene slot in 1 hari utk buka dgn family arwah Abbil.. =)*

after gi Nilai, plan nk terus lik kampung..dapat lame sket kat kampung klo lik awal kan..leh tlg nenek sket2 =)

8/9 - genap Abg Naufal 3 thn =)

9/9 - genap sthn arwah Abbil pegi....

10/9 - SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI KEPADA SEMUA =)

p/s: MY THIRD ANAK BUAH IS ON THE WAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =)))))

kerja

2010-08-08T17:39:00.002+08:00

"ain, bila nak start keje?" - Fuad Ismail, bff

"kak ain!!! bila nak keje seh??" - Ika Dzulkifli, kazen

"adik nak cari keje ke?" - Kak Epi, sis in law

"anne, ko xcari keje ke?" - Suhaidah, bff

oh pleeeeezzz..jangan tanye sal keje lagi..masih lagi mode tido sesuka hati, menjadi bibik sejati n rehat sampai kembung...hihihi..

mixed

2010-08-02T01:56:00.002+08:00

Assalamualaikum W.B.T...

stress. ceh bajet. kelmarin jenjalan gi OU. jalan2 tibe2 ade tulis "season's clearance". dem. klo masuk sure stress. tapi masuk gk. punye la ramai manusia beratur bayar kat counter. wah! bukan main longgokkan lagi korg ni mmbeli kan. mate rabak tgk sale kaw2! mate lagi bertambah rabak tgk duit ada bape hengget jek!! masuk2 jek, tgk ade dis jacket rm49!!!!!!!! boley tak????? kau kenape seh?? nak buat sale time aku takde duit. tapi gatal nak pkai gak. yang penting dapat pakai wpon xbeli. muahahaha. then kembali stress. sgt byk baju cantek2 yang mmg further markdown. from rm249 jadi rm119. yang jacket tu from 120(xsilap) jadi rm49. cukup buat hati mendidih. sluar xbanyak choice. season of skinny xabes2 lagi. so byk skinny. xmo bli skinny dah. peha makin besar. ceh xpasal. padahal peha xpenah kecik pon. shawl pon banyak. shoes juga. but xbrani nk pegang. zara kan byk pig skin lining collection kan. so xmo amek risiko dgn pgg. jalan2 dalam tu, cam xmo kua. back to d jacket area. nk bli ke x? nk ke x? hmm raye nk dekat. ceh xpasal. puasa pon tak lagi. xperlu kot jacket tu. motif nk pkai jacket time raye??? nak kene hambat dgn nenek??? kecoh 1 kampung nnt kang. lantas, xbeli. stress level ttp xberkurang. mula berpikir, bila la nak keje ni? yg plg esmos le tau aku xkeje lagi is IKA. kazenku. hahaha. nnt gua carik keje, dapat gaji gua blanje lu. hihihi. ha tu la. bila la nk keje ni. tapi sebok nak kawen awal. nak kawen apenye. duit bli brg hntran pon xde. "dik, nak kawen nnt, cari duit barang hantaran je. dah cukup nnt, kawen la." owh bestnye! food, dewan, mjlis, sume di'sponsor'. perks of being one n only daughter n bongsu??? hihihi. ha ah. mmg la best. mslhny duit brg hntaran xde kan. duit dalam bank pon 3 angka je. ape jadahnye?? ceh esmos. konklusinye, CARIK KEJE LA WEH!! keje=kawan baru. kembangkan circle of frens. baiklah. berazam utk carik keje sok!!! berusaha NURUL AIN!!! jgn mls!!!!!!!

IMAM MUDA SANGAT BAGUS!! asyraf menang. expected somehow. shukran2. sume pon bagus. sgt suka imam muda Nuri. sgt2 sedap suara dia. dia seorg Qari =) lagi sorg yg sedap suaranya is Taufek. syahim cakap taufek ni kat UTM mmg slalu azan kat surau sane. plus, head of nasyid UTM kot. eh jap. xsure head ke ape. but in the nasyid group la yg pasti. dari awal episod lagi slalu ckp kat ayu n mama yg suara nuri n taufek mmg lunak. sila click link ini. harap rancangan2 gini byk lagi. xde la cam AF n jgn lupa lirik yg @#$%^&*. jgn lupa tgk kat channel 551. SEVEN WONDERS OF THE MUSLIM WORLD. betapa hebatnya Islam ni. lengkap.

hmm risau. busu kat mlaka eksiden. nabil yg kat joho tu pon eksiden. alhamdulillah sumeny ok. but near death la jugak kiranye. risau ya Rabb. pastikan korg bc doa naik kenderaan ye. pandu la dengan selamat.

ramadhan menghampiri!! ya Allah tak sabar!! transformation!!! sikit2 lama2 jadi bukit. istiqamah! tu yg penting. bila jauh, byk sgt dugaan. bila dekat, dugaan yg datang dapat dihadapi dgn tenang. pelik kan? tak pelik pon. Dia dah janji kan sume ni. aku je yg pegi jauh sangat slame ni....

speakin of ramadhan, tak kan lupa 19 ramadhan thn lepas. 09/09/09. harap dapat buka dgn mama time tu thn ni. just want to be there for mama. moga2 adik ditempatkan dgn orang2 soleh. amin.

p/s: jangan sekadar menjadi hamba ramadhan, sebaliknye kekal menjadi hambaNya yg 'benar'. ilalliqa'~

nisfu syaaban

2010-07-27T00:02:00.010+08:00

Assalamualaikum W.B.T...

pelik. 1 hari sampai 2 posts. tekanan, mungkin? hmm tak kesah la apa jua sebabnya. tangan bergerak tatkala hati berbicara.

kelmarin..
mama: hello assalamualaikum, Ain.
ana: waalaikumsalam ma. ye ma?
mama: jangan lupa malam nisfu syaaban ye.
ana: ha ye2. ain ingat. sama2 sedekah al-fatihah n baca yasin k.
mama: ha ha ye la. bagus la tu. ni kenapa suara lain je ni? nangis ke?
ana: hahaha takde la ma. pandai2 je ma ni *kesat airmata*
mama: betul ni? kalau ada apa2 bgtau mama tau.
ana: *senyum ringkas* ok ma. jgn risau ye.
mama: ha ye la. jaga diri ain baik2. assalamualaikum.
ana: ok ma. kem salam papa ye. waalaikumsalam.

i can't live on my own. perlukan teman. teman berbicara. kalau dulu, agak2 empangan nak pecah, main redah je USJ 2. jumpa arwah adik. even awal2 pagi pon, akan call arwah. skg? bila perlukan teman, nak cari siapa? bukan nak kata teman yg ada skg tak dapat membantu, cumanya lebih senang berbicara ttg hal2 peribadi dgn sesetgh org je.

skg tgh bergelut. dgn masalah peribadi. cukup buat diri kerdil ni termenung sepanjang hari. merasakan tindakannya betul, ada kala meragui akan tindakan itu. ini yang terbaik kah? macam mana nak tau? entahla.

ditinggalkan keseorgan di rumah sepanjang hari. physical yg kurang sihat. peristiwa part 3 n 4 degree berlaku lagi. tapi alhamdulillah. hanya sementara. kembali okay. syukur. walau untuk seketika.

terlelap lewat ptg, gara2 kondisi badan. 20 mins b4 maghrib, mata terbuka luas. "ya Allah! maghrib dah!". bergegas naik bilik n mandi. solat maghrib. baca kitab suci. yasin 5x *tak ingat kenapa dulu ustaz pesan seelok2nya baca yasin 5x pada malam nisfu syaaban*.

masuk kali ke 4 hingga ke 5, masyaAllah. bocor sungguh empangan. tak tau kenapa. badan lemah. masih terus membaca. aritu puasa pon macam ni gak. lepas maghrib, jadi lemah. hormon mungkin? apekah?

tak kesahlah. janji selesai. alhamdulillah. terlelap lagi skali. dgn berbungkus kan telekung, rebah atas sejadah. mimpi. terlalu peribadi utk dinyatakan tapi cukup untuk buat diriku lemas dalam fikiran sendiri.

turun bawah. kepala macam bengang. keadaan keliling macam tiada udara. perut semakin teruk. pening kunjung kembali. naik bilik. rehat lagi. bosan. tgk tv. *sempat lagi tu* rehat lagi. psg maher zain. ha! bocor lagi! pe masalah kau takleh duk sorang2 ni????

betapa lemahnya diri. betapa sakitnya hati. hujan diluar, lebat lagi didalam hati. diri lelah. hanya dambakan satu petanda. terasa diri macam pesakit schizo. kejap happy kejap sedih.."manusia diciptakan Allah S.W.T dengan perasaan keluh kesah dan gelisah"

moga roh2 yg telah pergi dicucuri rahmat. rindu pada yg tiada, cinta pada yg hadir. minta dikuatkan hati dan iman pada yg ada.

pergilah untuk selamanya kiranya sekadar datang bertandang. kekal selama mana kiranya berniat untuk membahagiakan.

vacation

2010-07-26T21:14:00.002+08:00

cepatlah minggu depan!!!!!!!
xsabar!!!
i need my time off..
vacation..vacation..vacation..
cant wait 4 dat 4days vacation!! =))

last night was superbbbbb...
i had so much fun!!
the food was incredibly awesome, the ambiance was very nice, the service was friendly..
mmg best la!
maybe next post baru letak gambar la eh..
xtransfer lagi kat lappy ni..

i misplaced arwah adik's ring =(
aritu time dinner mmg pakai 2 rings..
1 jumpe, 1 xjumpe..
xingat la letak kat mane.. =(
mybe nnt jumpe la kot..

tgh pk nk tuka fon..
ika pon dh tension, everytym call mesti terputus..
but kadang2 ok lak..
erghhh...
i'm thinkin of changin my phone num too..
maxis,maybe? or digi?
pkai celcom postpaid ke, leh dapat blackberry..
nyahahaha byk cantek!
plus, lately ni byk cite sal blackberry..
n sumenye bg bad remarks...benarkah??

ah persetankan sume tu..
yg penting skg--> VACATION!

kata-kata menghiris hati mampu membuatkan diri berlayar pergi

berkecai tak dihadap

2010-07-26T01:27:00.002+08:00

bukan salahku
dirimu menadah simpati
bukan salahku
dirimu terguris hati

lelakikah engkau
kerna mengasariku?
lelakikah engkau
kerna merobek hatiku?

insan biasa ciptaanNya
engkau dan aku
kita serupa
bedanya cuma segumpal darah
yang bergelar sekeping hati

kemana arus kita
hanya samar yang diberi
kerana cinta kita
hanya penghujung yang menanti

segenap hati dihiris
pedih lagi airmata dititis
utara selatan jarak kita
mungkin ini penandanya

engkau dan aku
terpisah jua akhirnya
kerna benci hati binasa
hujan dihati untuk selamanya

langkah kerdil mengiringi perjalanan yang mengharapkan sinar mentari bakal mendatang

buckle.up

2010-07-18T00:17:00.002+08:00

tak salah nak gaul
tak salah nak campur
diri punya kekuatan tersendiri
akal masing - masing
tujuan masih sama

jangan rosakkan diri dengan perkara haram
manis dunia tidak kekal
manis akhirat yang dikejar

diri mahu didamba
persoalannya, berupayakah?
kiranya masih tidak berubah
berlandaskan nafsu
bertuhankan syaitan

hidup serba kekosongan
kiranya diri tidak berubah
dosa kelam belum terhapus
jangan dicipta benci yang baru

~pissednurulainnoorafudin~

penyeri idup acu

2010-07-15T00:06:00.005+08:00

buah hati acu ;)

*MUHAMMAD NAUFAL BIN MOHAMAD NADZRI*
*MUHAMMAD ILLYASA' BIN MOHAMAD AZHAR*

matang?

2010-07-14T02:26:00.004+08:00

Assalammualaikum W.B.T...

sume sehat? ceh bajet. padahal baru jek upload clip papa nyanyi tadi. nk lagi clear, pkai earphone. baru suara papa clear. hehehe. sementara tgh tunggu turn nk buat facial, so ana nk bebel ket.

i must admit, if things didn't go my way, i wud be furious, mad, esmos. i mean, who doesn't? so wen things happen dat way, i wud knock on my mom's door and she's my confidante instantly.

*incident 1*

me: ma, i broke up with him..

ma: la..nape syg? r u okay?

me: tah la ma..adik pon xtau ape yg adik rase..

ma: well syg..kita merancang..Allah yg tentukan segala..hanya Dia tau apa yg terbaik utk adik..

me: adik yg mintak break..sbb i had enuf..dah xlarat..

ma: watever it is, mesti ada sbb nape sume ni berlaku kan..adik pon xtau apa akan jadi in future kan..

me: adik tau..but adik dh bg my 110% to this rship..nape xwork out gk?

ma: sbb Allah loves u..He knows best syg..dun doubt Him..MESTI ade sbb dik..

*after few months of sulking, esmosing, etc, few things happened that make me "nasib baik la aku dah break dgn dia"..*
.............................................................................................

*Incident 2*

ma: cene dik? dh tau result?

me: syahim baru call..dia ckp adik xdekan..

ma: awww *hugs* its okay sayang..its not the end of the world..i know u've worked so hard 4 it but dah xde rezeki syg..

me: tapi adik nk sgt dekan..dah la final sem..sikit je lagi..

ma: nape nk sgt dekan? bcoz of dat ANC thing u said b4?

me: tah la..ye kot..some sort like self-fulfillment or achievement 4 me kot..

ma: its ok syg..xsemesti nk kene ANC baru nk jadi "berjaya"..adik dah berusaha..then Allah yg tentukan..adik kene ingat, apa yg kita nak xsemestinya yg terbaik utk kita..dun ever sigh or complaint if things didnt go ur way..trust Allah as He has better plans 4 u..

me: emm okay..(still dissatisfied)

*after few months of mourning n crying, suprisingly ana okay..*
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moral of the story: bila kita serahkan 100% pada Allah AFTER kite berusaha, hati sangat tenang..serious xtipu..nak live with it mmg susa, i mean bnda yg kita NAK sgt2 xdapat, msti la ati cm frust la sedih la mourn la..sgt byk perkara yg ana nak but xdapat..but makin lama, dah btol2 phm maksud "redha"..thanks to mag Solusi n mama's advices..makin lama, makin matang kot ;)

En. Noorafudin =)

2010-07-13T22:14:00.002+08:00

presenting to u, En. Noorafudin Bakri! New talented singer in town..weee ;)

kalau?

2010-07-07T01:37:00.002+08:00

kalau adik ade duit yg sgt byk skg, adik dh book 1st flight to Wellington 2moro..
KALAU adik kat sane, atleast i can lend u my shoulder 2 cry on..
adik tau mi tgh pening/runsing/risau sal aida..
kami kat sini doakan dia okay kat sane..
plz do text mama at any time..
update us..
adik sangat2 risau sbnrnye..
can't help it but cryin..
hang in there and be strong..

pakcu balik nnt sape amek kat airport?
straightly to johor?
if perlukan sape2, we r here 4 u..

how i wish mama n i cud be there 4 u till september..
let's pray things are okay..
inshaAllah..
hang in there, mi..
we love u n the kids soooo much..

='( *just cant help it..sory*

hati.

2010-07-06T20:42:00.002+08:00

panas tapi tak panas sangat

sakit tapi tak sakit sangat

pedih tapi tak pedih sangat

bengang tapi tak bengang sangat

marah tapi....hmm memang sangat marah

silent plz. jauh sikit. takut dekat2 kang kene "makan" lak. bagi hati cool dulu. agak2 dah tenang, baru bertandang.

p/s: walau bagaimanapun, ada 3 berita baik. saszri dapat keje kat KLCC, ain dapat keje kat giant shah alam, iqbal dah jadi tunangan org..alhamdulillah..

c'est normale!

2010-07-05T13:23:00.002+08:00

happy oh!
walau untuk seketika
walau dgn beberapa msg diterima
cukup utk buat diriku tersenyum
"sakit" masih ada
c'est normale
berpegang pada harapan
harapan "the day" akan muncul
biarkan kita terpisah
untuk sekian lama
kira tertulis bagi kita
untuk bersama
i'll be yours forever
........................................................
okay bye
nak mandi
hihihihi

tiba tiba

2010-07-03T03:16:00.002+08:00

dah golek2 atas katil, tiba2 rase cam nak;

- jalan2 kat padang mlm2 buta
- gi window shopping sorang2
- tgk wayang, sorang2
- drive don kat highway malam2, sorang2
- minum vanilla coke yg 1.5liter tu

hmm pendek kate, nak relax sorang2 n "rosakkan" badan sndiri..

p/s: ye benar. sy stress dan sakit hati. pipi tiba2 basah? oh airmata rupanya. sekian.

stalker

2010-07-02T19:26:00.002+08:00

i
am
your
one
and
only
stalker
.............................
so
don't
lie
to
me
.............................
eventually,
i
will
know
the
truth
..............................

specially 4 umainah mustafar

2010-06-25T12:40:00.001+08:00

haaaa meh sini nk buat krgn ket..
budak kecik ni, sy mula rpt dgn dia bila dia slalu ketuk pintu bilik kat baiduri,ajak lepak kat tangga, cite2, ngs2..
bila ade sorg clzmate specky comel2 chubby2 mula rapat dgn dia, dia dtg cite2 kat sy juga..
happy katenye ;)
bila duk uma sewa kat penang, klo gado2 dgn bf dia pon, dia cite kat sy..
dia tido sblh sy tym kat uma sewa..
dia ni SGT SUKE SESAT dlm carre4..
suke apple juice..
suke starbucks..
suke choc..
kdg2 dia kejam gak..
suke gado dgn ida..
dgn ain pon..
sal smpah pon leh gado..
dia msk sedap..
tapi nk ngemas, aduyai..
kene ade maid budak ni..
dia punye mood swing, takyah ckp ah..
salute apiz kerna kesbrnnya yg tggi ;)
dia ni bab2 critical thinking, hebat..
baka baba maybe ;)
dh 5thn sy kenal dia..
inshaAllah kekal smp bila2..
sy syg budak kecik ni..
dia byk songeh p sy syg dia..
dia pon syg sy juga..
sbb klo xsyg, xkan dia bc karangan ni kan..hee..
eid milad, my love..
moga2 perkara yg terbaek berlaku dlm life kamu..
btw, sy mau pants, top n a pair of shoes frm al..
skian time kaseh ;)

strictly for ladies out there!

2010-06-23T16:15:00.003+08:00

if u r a guy, i think its best for u to click the "x" sign instantly...

BUT,

if u hv the vahjayjay, stick with me by clicking here!

trust me, i'm just doing a favor 4 u, FOC! enjoy browsing the site! toodles ;)

p/s: just choose the subcategories according to your liking ;)

carca marba!

2010-06-20T23:37:00.003+08:00

Assalammualaikum W.B.T...

+ ana xsmbung blaja
+ ana xkeje.....lagi
+ jadi bodyguard cum driver mama
+ oh arini father's day. baru jek bbq kat depan uma
+ perut tgh partially full. hehe
+ aritu lik kampung. nenek masak nasi lemak singapore. mashaAllah. nikmat! shukran!
+ staff Murni USJ dh kenal ana. siap tau nama lagi. pelik!
+ sgt sgt sgt sgt sgt sgt mahu hi - cut canvas!
+ go HOLLAND!!!!
+ grad dgn 1st class honours. shukran!
+ blackberry or iPhone 4g? nyahaha
+ baju raya - tempah or beli siap?
+ ganti puasa dulu!!!
+ lagi sebulan untuk......... =(

updates!

2010-06-20T00:10:00.001+08:00

walaupon skg tgh xkeje/xsmbung blaja, terasa sgt bz!
dh ade ms t ana update..
nyahaha~
toodles!

2010-06-19T23:53:00.002+08:00

Zauji..

2010-06-08T19:31:00.002+08:00

Zauji....

sihat? so far semuanya ok? jg mkn x? tido cukup x? hannan makin gedik..tapi comel..abg naufal pon same je..mulut dh cotcetcotcet..mcm acu dia kot.. ;) esok, 9/6/10, genap 9 bulan arwah adik pergi tinggalkan zaujati..tapi xpe..zaujati redha..kak na pon dh slmt melahirkan 1st baby dorg..kak long arwah adik pon tgh pregnant..Allah tarik seorg, Allah beri 2 org pada keluarga arwah adik..shukran jazilan..

zaujati tgh tunggu..bila la nk dapat anak buah pompuan ni..hiiii..nnt zaujati nak spoilkan dia dgn baju yg cantek2..hehe..nnt ade rezeki, kita same2 li bj utk abg naufal, hannan n bakal niece zaujati ye.. =)

zaujati xmintak byk, just make sure zauji jaga diri k..wherever u are..smoga perkara2 yg baik berlaku pada zauji..insyaAllah..smoga zauji dapat apa yg zauji mahukan..insyaAllah..apa2 pon, just yakin yg ni sume adalah yg terbaik utk kita jua..amiinnnn~

10 things i hate about u

2010-05-28T12:21:00.002+08:00

i hate the way u talk to me, and the way u cut ur hair

i hate the way u drive my car

i hate it when u stare

i hate ur big dumb combat boots, and the way u read my mind

i hate u so much it makes me sick, it even makes me rhyme

i hate the way u'r always right

i hate it when u lie

i hate it when u make me laugh, even worse when u make me cry

i hate it when u'r not around, and the fact u didn't call

but mostly, i hate the way i don't hate u, not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all

='(

ease ur heart? hope so..

2010-05-28T02:10:00.001+08:00

lots of new posts, right?

i do keep my promise..

normal is needed

2010-05-28T02:00:00.002+08:00

saya happy bila awak happy

saya sakit bila awak sakit

saya tenang bila awak kalut

saya kalut bila awak tenang

saya baran bila awak baran

saya lemah bila awak menjadi kekuatan

saya hanya insan lemah

insan yang punya perasaan

marah, cemburu, sakit hati, terasa hati

semuanya

saya hanya insan biasa

"plumber" saya menghilang

saya yang mahukan keadaan itu

keadaan dimana saya belajar untuk menghadapi semua kesulitan bersendirian

saya perlu belajar untuk berdikari

walaupun ternyata saya hanyalah

SEORANG INSAN YANG LEMAH..

saya sayangkan awak

asalkan awak masih menjadi orang yang sama,

from the 1st day we met ='(

semoga kita sama2 menjalani kehidupan yang biasa, yang normal

kerna masa depan itu, tidak pernah diketahui oleh sesiapa pun..

He knows best

2010-05-27T02:15:00.003+08:00

Assalammualaikum W.B.T...

my previous post, i wrote sumthin about "things u want may not be the best for u" kan. betul pe. ni nak share sket cite ni.

Zaman Rasulullah S.A.W, ada seorg pengembala kambing staying at this remote area. kambing dia sekor je. hidup susa. umah usang. mkn pon kdg2. but despite of all the difficulties in survival, dia xpernah lupa pada Allah. solat 5 waktu xpernah tinggal. sering berdoa n berpuasa. then 1 day, Rasulullah S.A.W jalan kat area uma this person. then dis person berkata "Ya Rasulullah, lihatlah rumah usangku. Kambing hanya seekor. Aku mohon pada mu, Ya Rasulullah. Agar kau doakan lah aku kesenangan, kemewahan."

Rasulullah S.A.W lantas mengangkat kedua tgn dan berdoa kepada Allah. sperti yg dihajatkan oleh saudara itu.

keesokkannye, tiba2 kambing dia bunting. then melahirkan ramai anak2 kambing. makin lame makin byk kambing. kambing2 yg ada dijual. susu kambing pon dijual. makin lama perniagaan saudara ini makin berkembang. dari rumah usang menjadi rumah besar. pkaian tidak lagi compang camping. makan mewah.

sayangnya, makin kaya, makin jauh dgn Allah. kesibukan dijadikan alasan utk semakin berjauhan dgn Allah. solat semakin rompong. wpon dh kaya, saudara tersebut tidak mengeluarkan zakat. semakin takbur n semakin tamak n semakin kedekut.

Allah Maha Besar. pada suatu hari, timbul 1 perasaan didalam dirinya yg mmbuatkan dia sedar bahawa kemewahan yg beliau kecapi hanya menjadikan beliau seorg yg semakin "teruk". kebetulan, Rasulullah S.A.W berjalan ke kawasan perumahan saudara ini.

terus beliau melutut pada Rasulullah S.A.W dan berkata "Ya Rasulullah, sesungguhnya kemewahan dan kekayaan tidak sesuai bagiku. aku semakin jauh dgn Allah S.W.T. tolong doakan agar aku mendapat kembali kehidupanku yg sebelum ini"

Rasulullah S.A.W lantas mengangkat tgn dah berdoa seperti yg dihajatkan. keesokkannya, kesemua kambing2 beliau mati tiba2. beliau menjalani kehidupan yg biasa, miskin pada harta tetapi kaya pada ilmu terhadap Allah S.W.T.

Allah beri kesenangan sekelip mata. dalam sekelip mata juga, Allah tarik semua kesenangan itu.

itulah kisahnya. ada masanya kita rasa kita nakkan something or even someone, but bila xdapat apa yg dihajati itu, kita bermuram durja, diam seribu bahasa. bersyukurlah wahai semua. kerna apa jua yg berlaku pasti ada hikmahnya. belajarlah utk terima SEGALANYA dgn penuh kesyukuran. kerna apa yg kita mahukan mungkin bukan yg terbaik utk kita. only Allah knows.

im learning too. to accept the facts that if things against my way,there must be a reason behind all dat. trust me its difficult. but hey, no harm for trying kan.

im leaving it to Him. "jangan sandarkan pada manusia kerna kelak kau akan menyesal. sandarkan pada Allah S.W.T kerna Dia tidak akan sesekali mengecewakan kau."

"selangkahku kepadaMu, seribu langkah Kau padaku"

shukran jazilan atas apa jua yg ana ada selama ni. kerna ana pasti, ada yg lebih susah dari ana di dunia ni.

=')

quick.one(not really)

2010-05-26T20:23:00.003+08:00

Assalammualaikum W.B.T..

i got the offer.
i turned down the offer.

i got the interview.
i did not go for the interview.

i got the offer to pursue my studies,
still thinking whether to go or not.

still,
i am enjoying my life.

not in hurry though,
in finding any jobs.

even my parents say,
"u dun have to rush,dik..take it easy.."

true..indeed..

enjoying my life by;
- reading novels
- playing badminton
- watching tv
- dating with my little emperors ;)

"things that u really want may not be the best for u..Allah knows best..leave it to Him..things happen for various of reasons.."

i'm sory if i hurt u in any ways (merujuk kepada ayat diatas), my friends..
coz it seems u guys are not "letting it to Allah"..

its OKAY to be determined..
i mean, to really want of what u believe its the best for u..

but when it against ur plan,
u turn out to be very defensive..

just trust Allah, my friends..

it happened to me, u know..
wanting this thing so freaking bad..

BUT, the situation,
seemed to against..

i cant accept it..
at first..

but, soon i discovered that,
for whatsoever the reasons were,
it was for my own good..

Allah Maha Mengetahui..
Percayalah..
InshaAllah, anda tidak akan pergi "jauh"..
kiranya anda serahkan padaNya,
setelah berusaha..

inshaAllah....

so.many.things

2010-05-04T15:37:00.002+08:00

so many things i wanna do!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! eh, lupa..sory2..xberadab..Assalammualaikum W.B.T...

=)

okay, lets start =)

i have 2 more papers to go..just cant wait for this 2years-of-hell to end..can't believe either..dah nk abes dah..weee~ inshaAllah..harap xkantoi paper..especially e-commerce yg nyawa2 ikan tu..btw, i attended Suraya's wedding last Sunday (May 2nd)..Dah kawen dah mek tu =) shukran jazilan.. ^_^

ishh..my stories are sooooo jumbled up. Sory ye. Sbb cm dalam otak ni macam sume bnde nk cite. ceh esmos. basically, my post this time is about listing out what i am planning to do after my final exam ends..here goes;

- gi ikea mkn meatballs
- gi zoo bawak naufal n hannan
- cat bilik wane light purple ^_^ weeeeee~
- gi MPH beli novel Nicholas Sparks *WAJIB*
- main ice skating n practice bowling..mama dh bising..ade bola, ade kasut tapi xmain..baiklah! adik akan kerap main pasni!
- sleepover uma along n agh..spend more tym with both of my little soldiers..
- lik kampung jumpe nenda
- exercise *hahahahahahaha*
- layan new season of Grey's Anatomy n Gossip Girl *owh chuck!*
- treatment n dye my hair
- gi spa *tgh pujuk mama mintak sponsor*
- gi sunway li JCO!! ngidam =(
- lepaking with subangrians
- bake, bake and bake
- Zara-ing ^_^
- masuk spore dgn ika, mira n others 4 dat universal studios thingy
- buat resumes n cari keje..

and the list goes on and on and on....

watever it is, xsbr nk abes degree =) agak2 dh bosan xde keje, buat shuang hor.."adik, if u want dat rm*** in ur account to be really yours, tlg ma anta product" tarak hal la ma! smp spore pon adik sanggup tlg anta kan..hohoho..

i need MONEY!! tonnes of MONEY..kaching!! $$$$$$$$$$ ($_$)

okay nk smbung blaja..ceh bajet..k bye!

$$ money money money money money money money $$

HAPPY.BIRTHDAY

2010-04-20T20:43:00.004+08:00

MOHAMMAD SYAHIM BIN KHAIRUDDIN...

HAPPY 23rd BIRTHDAY to u!!

segala nasihat/pesanan/harapan telah pon dinyatakan didalam msg smlm..huhu..

well, here's a few..

smoga panjang umur supaya boleh collect "point" dgn lebih byk utk akhirat kelak..

smoga menjadi insan, khalifah bumi, anak pd mak abah mama, cucu pd atok nenek wan, along pd safwan ela ain, kawan pd fendi salihem najib ah cai *dan ramai lagi*, favourite student pd Pn. Farhana, bakal menantu pd mama papa, bakal pakcu pd Naufal Hannan dan juga bakal *hhuukk coughin* suami pd empunya blog ni yang SOLEH, BAIK, MENDENGAR KATA dan SEGALA SIFAT2 MAHMUDAH dan jauhilah segala sifat2 mazmumah..

smoga tercapai apa jua yg diimpikan..

kiranya apa yg diimpikan itu tidak kesampaian, hadapilah dgn tenang dan percayalah, Allah Maha Mengetahui segalanya..apa yg kita impikan mungkin bukan yg terbaik utk kita..oleh itu, jgn sesekali bersangka buruk padaNya..

bawah ni gmbr hadiah anda, tol x? hee..selamat menggodek fon tu ye.. =)

disebabkan suara sy sgt xsedap nyanyi, sila klik link ni ye..khas utk anda..enjoy! HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

another.10.things

2010-04-12T20:25:00.004+08:00

Assalammualaikum W.B.T

sume sehat? for this post, i'm gonna write another 10 things about me. saje je gatal nk cite ;)

1. saya takot tgk darah but saya suka derma darah ;)

2. saya xleh kene air lame2 sbb nnt jari kedut2 cm org tua..xleh basuh pinggan yg bertimbun2 :(

3. sgt fussy about foods-->
- tak makan kismis yg ade dlm roti, kek, nasi, etc.. but mkn kismis minda tu..
- d only sayur xmkn is kacang pjg, but klo ma msk rendang ayam cili api+kacang pjg, akan mkn..
- xmkn kerang rebus, tapi mkn kerang bkr
- cendol, rojak, mee rebus, mee bandung, mee kari, xmkn gak..
- byk lagi la kesongehan simplynurulainnoorafudin ni..

4. SGT indecisive bila shopping..sgt2..jap nk beli, jap masuk fitting room, jap cnfirm nak bayar, jap letak lik bj tu..in d end xbeli..pastu lik uma nyesal xbeli..ha gitu la..

5. xsuke pecahkan duit..suke note rm50..once rm50 dipecahkan, in few minutes, rm50 tu gone terus..

6. klo tgh down, suke jenjalan gi padang kat area uma ni..

7. saya seorg yg garang *ida pon penah ckp* pada kazen2 n tegas pada anak2 buah saya..

8. suka drive sorg2..especially kat highway..

9. family comes 1st..most people pon cmtu..but sumtyms dorg ckp je gitu..but action shows the other way round..but 4 me, siyesly, family comes 1st...i'll do watever they say/want..as long as i can make them happy..

10. i really do love reading..be it novels or article journals..as long as it is interesting..favorite novel author--->haruslah NICHOLAS SPARKS..article--->Parasuraman? hehehe..but i love reading =) i love guy who reads as well ;)

p/s: azimah once told me, a guy with gud english is quite different from other guys in terms of their thinking..more mature, i guess..a guy with gud english simply fascinates me..cthnye, En. Yunus tu.. ;)

BEST.I.EVER.HAD

2010-04-11T19:53:00.002+08:00

So you sailed away
Into a grey sky morning
Now I'm here to stay
Love can be so boring

Nothing's quite the same now
I just say your name now

Chorus
But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
You don't want me back
You're just the best I ever had

So you stole my world
Now I'm just a phony
Remembering the boy
Leaves me down and lonely

Send it in a letter
Make yourself feel better

Chorus
But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
You don't need me back
You're just the best I ever had

And it may take some time to
Patch me up inside
But I can't take it so I
Run away and hide
And I may find in time that
You were always right
You're always right

So you sailed away
Into a grey sky morning
Now I'm here to stay
Love can be so boring

What was it you wanted
Could it be I'm haunted

Chorus
But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
I don't want you back
You're just the best I ever had
The best I ever had
The best I ever

~this one goes to you~
by: Vertical Horizon

2010-04-02T00:09:00.002+08:00

Assalammualaikum W.B.T...

sume sehat? i'm quite surprised myself..lately ni rajen tol update blog..

currently having serious bad headache..never been like this b4..plus a bit of fever and runnin nose..what happen to my antibody, hah?? been skipping my medicine lately..mybe dats the reason y..i promise not to forget our "date" anymore, Mr. Medicine..if i'm not mistaken, i brought my medicine to school ystrday..i put it inside my pocket..but when i got home, "aikk?? mane pegi?"..baru teringat nk mkn..haihh..tercicir la tu..

i went to Puchong just now..beli barang2 4 muffins..it was REALLY-EXTREMELY-FREAKIN-HOT-SUNNY DAY, okay! the heat was #$%^&*(..sgt panas! Allah betul2 menguji.. obviously it was not my day..klo panas, sgt panas, automatically, i'm not in a good mood.. i think people who really know me well wud understand that..

i uploaded some pictures of bayel's wedding on fb..later la tag sume org..mls nk tag..*xde mood kan*..family in NZ, the pictures are specially 4 all of u =)

2moro mornin, i'll be off to Nilai..with my girls..muffin n wedding cake in the making..gonna b a bz day..i hope by getting a little bit bz, i can somehow distract my mind from thinkin of you..though its hard as u r so irresistable *big grin*, but i have to..i mish u so much, you know..well, i'm sure u already knew =)

owh..btw..i have to go n see the doc some day..nak ajak mama gi skali..perut makin sensitive..i know i'm prohibited *y do i feel dat this word is 'strong'?* from drinkin d carbonated drinks, but tahla..mcm gettin worst..d other day, i took a sip..a sip,okay!~ and i barely stand straight! its like there's sumthing growling inside my tummy..and its like i just drank gallons of acids! cam usus tu hakis smp xde usus *exaggerate ;)* it was creepy..i had to stay in my room for hours kot! klo mama tau, surely kene nag punye..kene marah..then pehal gi minum klo tau perut sensitip?? hee..sometimes teragak sgt2 nk minum..tgk pa minum, tgk bayel minum, cm sedap jek..lantas, tanpa berfikir pnjg, gua pon bedal! ;) padan muka aku! yeayy!

my room smells good, you know..i'm loving it =) *okay, xpasal2 =)*

okay dh xtau pe nk tulis..toodles~~

p/s: i love u still.. =)

endless love

2010-03-31T21:47:00.003+08:00

today is WEDNESDAY..

hari rabu, ana kenal anta..
hari rabu, ana gaduh dgn anta..
hari rabu, ana accident kat tol batu 3..
hari rabu, ana serahkan heart and soul ana..
hari rabu, kita lalui sgalanye bersama..
hari rabu, ana sakitkan hati anta..
hari rabu, ana terpaksa tinggalkan anta..
atas sesetengah dasar..
atas sesetengah komitmen..
maafkan ana..
maafkan ana..
sayang ana pada anta masih kekal..
inshaAllah..
sehingga kita disatukan..
sehingga kita dimatikan..

adik

2010-03-30T01:14:00.002+08:00

i miss u so much, dik.....
so much..
papa print gmbr adik..
besar..
papa letak kat ruang tamu dpn..
sebelah kerusi besar tu..
kak ain xleh tgk org pkai contact lense biru..
kak ain teringat kat abbil..
i need u so badly...
i hate AF..
tgk Jimmy Shanley akan buat kak ain teringat kat abbil..
klo abg shahril pgg remote,
klo ada si Jimmy tu,
cpt2 dia tuka channel..
dia tau kak ain xleh tgk..
i miss u, bil..
so much..
so much..

='( dying inside....

lets.lets

2010-03-24T20:47:00.002+08:00

Assalammualaikum W.B.T..

things to do;

1. assignment Miss Rozy about maturity *sok kene submit*
2. independent study
3. studying 4 HR test II
4. testing muffin recipes
5. wedding cake abg ayel
6. searching d outfit 4 MPG *crap*
7. individual assignment food styling *gara2 aku xleh gi sg.besar. bongek!*
8. group assignment OB

dis Friday (26th March), gerak gi Penang till Sunday. then d whole week after coming back from Penang kene buat num. 2,3,4,5 and 6..

after MPG (5th April), kene buat 7 and 8 lak..

after that surely bz utk final IS + presentation..food styling test and OB test II..

final starts on 21st April - 10th May..

then, hopefully, tiada lagi next sem 4 me..

end of my degree course..

btw, within 5 years *from diploma till degree*, ketiga - tiga abang ana selamat mendirikan umah tangga (inshaAllah, abg ayel nikah 27th March ni). tak sangka, sgt cepat masa berlalu. anak ana pon dah ada 2 orang ; Muhammad Naufal Bin Mohamad Nadzri and Muhammad Illyasa' @ Abdullah Hannan Bin Mohamad Azhar..

bila turn ana? inshaAllah jika diizinkan Allah..

i need my rest..dah terlalu xlarat..i want to spend more tym with my kids..

*moga2 dapat kenal n attend wedding Nurul Fatihah*

let's.reminisce.

2010-03-21T00:58:00.003+08:00

Assalammualaikum W.B.T...

sume sehat? let's reminisce.. ;) *TERtiba*

1. Dahi ana berjahit gara2 terjatuh longkang ketika ana masih lagi tinggal di N9

2. Time skolah rendah, 1st crush ana ialah sorg budak cina..nama dia Benjamin.. ;)

3. Fav teacher, En.Johar..bawak kete wane merah..*pe la kabar org tua tu*

4. Tym diploma, my huge crush---> "abg laptop"..budak engineering, always have laptop with him..muka pon cm cina gak..putih2..haha ;) snggup gi laman siswa tu semata2 nk tgk dia..

5. Tym kat penang adalah TERBAEK kot..sgt best life kat penang.. =')

6. Stiap kali lik kampung, bila naek tingkat atas, akan teringat arwah atok yg suka mundar mandir kat area tu b4 dia tido..

7. Everytime naufal demam, akan teringat tym dia kene fit dulu..mmg scariest moment ever..

8. September 9th, 2009........

9. Sgt addicted dgn game boy, Nintendo wane hijau tym kecik2..tu abg yel punya..dia dpt tym dia masuk hospital gara2 patah tangan..

10. Tym part 2, ke part 3 diploma, layan cite Full House tym final exam..tgk non stop, except utk tido n solat..langsir tutup, pintu tutup, lampu tutup, masing2 masuk dlm selimut, layaaaaaan~ akhirnya, result masing2 SUCCESS weh! ;)

tears

2010-03-10T00:23:00.002+08:00

Mode: Crushed

='(

*just stop what u r doing now. ur words r killing me.*

*how could u? how could u?*

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i'm.yours.but.not.entirely...

2010-03-02T01:20:00.002+08:00

i love u so much..
so much that without u,
the emptiness in me is unbearable..

i love u so much..
so much that seeing u with someone else,
really makes my heart n mind go wild..

how i wish i could hold u..
how i wish i could touch u..
how i wish i could give what u want..
how i wish i could fulfill your dreams..
how i wish i could do all these,
just 4 u, my love..

"sampai bila?"
never been able to answer this question..
even until now..
i'm clueless..
i'm speechless..
i'm thorn..

i want u so bad..
i love u so much..
i need u so bad..
i adore u so much..

how can we tell if u and i, are meant to be together?
what future has for us?
will future bring us together?

my heart says go for it..
but my mind pulls me back..
my heart says do it 4 ur hapiness..
but my mind says think about your future..

i wish i could let you go..
so that u could find ur own hapiness..
but i just cant't..
letting you go is like killing my own self..

my wish list?
~ wishing that u would wait 4 me as long as u can
~ wishing that i've the courage to go against my 6years-principle
~ wishing that i'm free, to do what i want and make my own decision

what ever it is,
my love for u is so deep..
so deep that no one could possibly breaks it..
except for HIM..

if finally u'r giving up,
still,
YOU ARE ONE OF THE BEST THINGS EVER HAPPENED IN MY LIFE...

"who.am.i.to.u?" go figure!

2010-03-01T00:48:00.002+08:00

Assalammualaikum W.B.T...

sume sehat? it's been quite awhile i've not updated my blog. i'm losing the passion of writing, i guess. anyhow, MAS fair, MATTA fair, promotions and whatnot, somehow turn their back on me. (or izit the other way round? i wonder). i guess i've to postpone my plans to go for my holiday dis June. duit tak cukup =( maybe lom masa nye lagi kot. insyaAllah. someday.

i spent my weekend with my besties. nasir & epin came. i'm glad they came. seriously. despite being boycotted by someone, i guess i'm fine. i mean, they are my frens. during my pratical training, they were there for me at all times. gi lepak mkn, gi cari topup tgh2 mlm, gi pasar mlm naek beskal, gi island hopping, gi overnite tepi pantai, everythg. they were my eyes, my ears. they were there, for God sake. even at 2am, kalo ade prob pon, dorg sanggup bgn n listen to my probs. i'm lucky to have nasir n epin as my frens.

so, they came. we went to pantai remis, sunway pyramid 4 ice skating, ole2 4 bowling. hang out gitu2. 3 days with them---> happiness. the same feelings i had wen i was in langkawi. nasir told me. i've changed. not like he used to know.

"dulu kat langkawi, anne laen. anne happy, ceria, suka gelak. la ni naset tgk anne slalu termenung ja. awat?"

then, apiz told me,
"u dah xbest la anne. ramai notice. u makin diam. why?"

kim told me,
"to be truth anne, sy rase awk dh change a bit. awk makin diam. is everythg ok?"

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.....................
..............................

:'(

even nasir yg baru lepak 4 3 days boleh ckp cmtu. have i changed? smp cmtu skali? my girls always seem bz. but i got to let it out to sum1. apiz came through my mind. he knows everythg. my thoughts, my feelings, sume dia tau. coz i cant keep it inside me, alone. im dying inside. im thorn. dis pain is unbearable. i used to share these things with mama. but lately ma is bz. preparing ayel's wedding. im glad i spent my weekend with my besties. eventhough i didnt tell them anythg, but the fact dat they were infront of me, waking up seeing their faces, knowing that they were close to me, i was fine. the feeling of needing someone next to me was so great.

im so stressful. sgt2. i cry easily now. even typing this post pon nangis. apiz told me to let it out. now i am letting it all out. everytym shower pon ngs. haihhh..i wished i've thousands of dollars. i want to go far away. away that no one knows except for my family. away that no one could find me.

i'm not the old nurul ain noorafudin@anne. i'm not happy with my life now. i'm not happy with my love life. i'm not happy with my studies. i'm not happy with the pressure i'm facing now. i'm not happy being treated dis way. i'm not happy. simplynurulainnoorafudin is UNHAPPY.

the smile i'm putting now is fake. the laugh, the joy, the so-called happiness are all fake.

wanna see my genuine smile? is when i'm with my besfrens dat really understand me, there 4 me, dun jugde me easily n most of all, willing to hear out my explanations 4 everythg. tq

i need WE, not I..
i need a man, not a boy..
i need a besfren, not a fren..
i need a future husband, not a boyfriend..

so plz, if u r willing to be my man, my besfren, my future husband and us become WE, then only u come to me..

J.A.N.G.A.N!

2010-02-22T22:04:00.001+08:00

JANGAN

BERJANJI

KALAU

TAK

BOLEH

NAK

TUNAIKAN

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Mr. Teletubbies (You are lucky to have him, myna)

2010-01-29T19:07:00.002+08:00

Assalamualaikum W.B.T...

sume sehat? lama sgt dh tak update blog ni. sindrom byk-bnde-nk-tlis-tapi-malas melanda. maafkan ana. baru lik dari Bintang SideWalk *last week baru tau kewujudan tmpt tu*. discussion or shall i call it as tutorial with nomi's kazen? she taught us on how to use the photoshop for fud styling class purposes. leh je nk upah org utk edit but rase guilty. org lain buat sendiri, ana upah org? no good no good. so blaja la sket2. she is such a nice lady. kinda like her.

my other half left Malaysia oredi. for the past 2 months, mmg terbaik. they stayed with us. mcm2 bnda buat. main ice skating, bowling, dinner at Lebanese Restaurant, gi wedding abg nazmi, bla bla bla. it was fun. sgt2. sgt2. sgt2. berharap dapat jumpa dorg kat sana one day. insyaAllah. klo ana rajen, ana upload gegambar tym dgn dorg k.

perenggan ke3 baru berkaitan dgn tajuk. hehe. dulu tym skola ana ada besfren. im talkin about guy-besfren. dia tau segala. segala mslh dia tau. but bila dah masuk uitm penang, cm dah seperated, no longer bff. dia pon dah smbung blaja kat negeri org. then bila kat penang, cam takde guy besfren diatas sbb2 tertentu. ex-bf kuat jeles. boooriiingg. then tym prac, not really bff, but close frens dgn budak2 practical kat sane.

n NOW, kat uitm shah alam tercinta *cinta ke??*, i must say Mohd. Hafeez is my close fren. he's my classmate, my bff's bf, my group member, my boss *as im sending him home everytym abes clz, which makes me as his driver. lol*, my partner to be esmos, my watever la.

my bf is waaaayyy far from me. sumtimes i have no one to talk to. hafeez comes in mind. he wud help me in every way. he wud try his best to help me. *you are so lucky, purple4ngel*. sumtyms, kalo dia ada prob2 gituuuu dgn amoi dia, he wud ask my opinion, my advice, my kata2 hikmat. gituuuu. but i mean seriously, he is a very kind-hearted person who just loves her woman like HOMAIGOD, sgt2 syg kot. ha cmtu la. a gud fren, a gud lover *cm euww lak le baca lik*, a gud listener n a gud advisor. he knows dat he's gonna get from me if he happens to hurt Amoi. stalait terus.

A : cm nk demam la
H : meh i panggil S***** lik KL
A : hmm
H : maksudny?
A : i'm losing the sparks n i'm scared. seriously
H : why? maybe sbb jauh kot
A : then takkan nk dekat baru nk ok?
H : lagi berapa lama dia kat sana?
A : kita abes bulan 5 ni, dia plus a year
H : c'mon. u can do it. boleh punya
A : are u sure?
H : sure punya. fight for it.

ayat dia mmg bosan pon but sumhow makes me feel hmm.."lega"..ha dats the word. bc lik conversation atas ni pon jelas2 borrrinnngg *lol*, but tenang sket. xtau nape. dia bukan tau pon future. same goes to me. but the way he spilled it, make it look everythg's just fine. cmbest kan.

im lucky to have him as my fren, YOU are lucky to have him as ur life partner *insyaAllah*, we are lucky to have you in our life, even for short period of time. shukran jazilan. you're a gud fren, Mr. Tubbies.

insyaAllah...

2010-01-16T19:38:00.003+08:00

i'll be fine...

maybe...

insyaAllah...

as a matter of fact,

i HAVE too...

then again,

i'll be fine..

INSYAALLAH...

*make sure u click at the 'insyaAllah'..*

i may be a loner in this world but Allah will never ever abandon me..

8 orang penting

2010-01-14T12:28:00.007+08:00

Assalamualaikum W.B.T...

sume sehat? ana sehat2 saja. cuma stress lately. byk sgt bnda yg jadi. kalo ada jodoh, insyaAllah tak kemana. Allah takkan duga kita dgn sesuatu yg kita xleh nak cope. ana cuma doakan yg terbaik je. baik utk diri ana sendiri, or utk dia gk. tapi lupakan la. bukan tu yg ana nk bebel kali ni.

8 org penting, 3 group yg berbeza, 1 prasaan yg sama..

ha phm x?

8 org penting ni adalah org yg penting dalam life ana. jadi 3 group sbb 1 group kawan skola, 1 group kawan uitm, 1 lagi kekasih hati. prasaan yg sama yg ana maksudkan adalah prasaan syg ana yg sgt tinggi terhadap dorg ni.

First group,
NADIA AB WAHID and NABILA AB WAHID..

ni la kawan yg plg rapat dgn ana tym skola. even tym ana kat diploma pon still rapat. till now. dorg ni antara golongan yg dimana klo parents ana tau ana kua dgn dorg, lik 2 3 pg pon xpe. kira mmg parents kenal sgt dh la dgn dorg ni. syg dorg sgt sbb dorg ada disaat ana susa senang. tym nakal2 buat jahat pon ye gk. hee. now 2 2 kat UTM Skudai. which jadi jarang nk jumpe :( but CNY nnt jumpe. insyaAllah. can't wait. sbb byk bnda nk cite...

ha yg bj turquoise tu nadia..lagi 2 org kat tepi tu her sisters..alin n acik..

yang tdung putih ala2 nerd tu nabila..hehee..

Second group,
UMAINAH MUSTAFAR, SUHAIDAH MOHD YUSUF, NURULAIN MOHD SHARFIKRI, NURUL FAKHRIAH and SUHAILA ISHAK(makcik ni lmbt sket entry dia..hehehee)..

ok, name yg last skali tu cm xmasuk korum lagi. japgi baru cite. hehe. ok. dorg ni kawan2 ana tym diploma kat penang. slame 3thn idup bersama. cewah. mula2 masuk uitm, xrpt sgt dgn mai n ela. sbb sebilik dgn 3 gadis yg lain tu. lme2, baru mai ni tol2 diiktiraf masuk in our group. hehe. masing2 byk pe'el nye. but ana ok. senang dgn dorg. tym part 6 diploma mmg all the tym dgn dorg. sbb serumah kan. mmg best. mlm2 lepak mkn, tgk movie sme2, tgk dorg maen game SIMS, sume2 la. i wish i could turn back tym. seriously. sbb ana rase tu la moment yg buat ana happy sgt2. ana ngs dorg ada, ana sedih dorg ada, ana happy dorg ada. pendek kate dorg ni stalker ana. hahaha gurau ;) then masuk degree baru la rpt dgn mek kedah yg riuh tu, suhaila. ela ni mmg riuh. porak peranda dgn budak ni. haha. but as we grow older, kitorg stick 2gether as we accept each others' strength n weaknesses. eventho xsame course 4 our degree. but dats ok. manage 2 spend tym 2gether still. love u ladies~

from left: me, ida, ain and nomi(nurul fakhriah)

yg plg kanan tu mai
*mek ela, gmbr ko yg aku ade sumenye blur la..hahah sowiee*

Third group(not a group actually),
ARWAH AHMAD ABBIL ABDULLAH...

arwah adik angkat ana. anak angkat family ana. meninggal dunia pada 09/09/09 bersamaan dgn 19 Ramadhan. ana sayang sgt2 kat arwah. arwah satu2 nya lelaki yg ana leh cerita sgala apa jua masalah ana pada dia. seorg yg sgt2 menghormati org tua. tu sbb parents ana pon sygkan dia. dia klo dtg uma ana sure datang utk makan je. mcm uma sendiri. same gk cam ana. ana klo gi uma arwah, buat cm uma sendiri. mama papa arwah sgt2 baik. byk membantu ana bila ana mula2 dapat berita sal kehilangan arwah. mereka layan ana mcm anak kandung sendiri. ana redha. Allah lebih sygkan dia. waktu raya thn lepas, parents arwah siap nk bg flight ticket utk gi kelantan. suruh ana beraya dgn mereka. baik kan? sampaikan mama papa arwah bercadang nak masuk minang ana utk anak saudara mereka. kira sepupu arwah la kan. sbb tak nak ana dan mereka "terputus" hubungan selepas arwah meninggal. dari situ cukup jelas betapa sygnya mereka pada ana. ana bersyukur sgt2. pemberian mama pada ana waktu arwah pergi, akan ana simpan dan guna pkai sebaik mungkin. shukran jazilan.

...keluarga arwah...
duduk dari kiri: nenek arwah, mama
diri dari kiri: kak na(kak ipar), abg edan(abg), papa, abg man(abg ipar), kaklong(kakak), aqil(adik) dan aqilah(adik)
2org budak kecik tu danish n darwish, anak kaklong and abg man

...adik...

...al-fatihah...

a simple sentence can ruin everything

2010-01-14T07:02:00.002+08:00

...a little space is what I want...

...a little time off is what I need...

...being 'selfish' is not what I expected..

..but...

...things happen for reasons...

...so, NURUL AIN NOORAFUDIN...

DEAL WITH IT!!

...it's over...

...the end...

think.urself

2010-01-12T20:18:00.002+08:00

HARAM!!

kini.ku.pergi....

2009-12-24T23:22:00.003+08:00

kau pergi
disaat aku sunyi
kau pergi
disaat aku menanti
kau pergi
disaat aku kembali

aku buntu
aku kusut

pergi tidak meninggalkan kata
berlalu tanpa sebarang suara
siapa aku?
bagi dirimu?

boneka tidak dihargai
patung tidak dikunjungi
kau berlalu pergi
meninggalkan aku sendiri

dirimu bahagia
dirimu ceria

aku berlalu pergi
membawa sekeping hati
penuh rasa benci

kini ku pergi

i.wish.....

2009-12-24T22:46:00.004+08:00

...................................

" Look, I know what he did to you, but I would never ever do that to you. I won't hurt you, promise. You can count on me "

" I would, runaway with you, if I could"

" I'm not good. I used to be, a good kid. But not anymore "

" I know. I promised you I won't hurt you. And this is me, keeping that promise. Or you gonna get hurt "

...................................

~J.B~

10 things

2009-12-20T23:46:00.004+08:00

perkara yg mungkin anda tak tahu...

1. i'm a side sleeper..tido mesti mengiring ke kanan---> sunnah Nabi S.A.W kan :)

2. whenever u notice me listening to "walking away" by Craig David, tandanye saya sdg down n menhadapi mslh...

3. menangis dgn sgt2 teruk 2kali je..time dapat berita sal arwah abbil n arwah atok..

4. seorg yg berjimat cermat sebenarnye..

5. dalam byk2 keje kat uma, bnde plg xsuke buat adalah SIDAI BAJU!!

6. merujuk pada perkara no.5, fmily sy pgl sy puteri lilin..mmg xsuke kene panas..

7. boleh termenung pikirkan segala bende sampai xtido..

8. saya suke travel..akan cuba travel sejauh n sebanyak mungkin sepanjang hidup..

9. kau sergah aku dgn ular? aku ok. kau sergah aku dgn lipas? aku ok. kau sergah aku dgn cicak? aku blasah kau sampai lunyai.

10. bad habit?---> bila org buat presentation n he/she pronounce it wrongly, i tend to correct them instantly n kadang2 tu tersebut kuat..sure org tu terasa hati..sorry :(

butt off!!

2009-12-20T22:55:00.001+08:00

AKU

TAKNAK

APPLY

TPM!!

jgn la pakse.......................

indecisiveness

2009-12-15T00:17:00.005+08:00

Assalammualaikum W.B.T...

sume sihat? hmm. currently watching 3 silly guys playing the Jengga. fun. abg tahfiz is bad. suke buat Jengga tu senget. but he says " baru la adventure". ok bang. watever u say. acu's family back here in Subang. will be spending most of time with them lagi. sok planning nk buat muffin. but tgk la. kalo flu ni dah ok, leh la buat. klo x, xkn nk buat slimy muffin lak kn. *ewwww*.

hmm. indecisiveness. ha tu la dia. yesterday, i logged in my fb. read my frens' status. most of them wrote about TPM (Tenaga Pensyarah Muda). and i was like "aik??dah leh apply ke?" asked one of my fren about the TPM. she said she's applying for that. owh ok. "ko tak apply ke? try la apply. pointer pon lepas kn." hmm tu la dia. indecisive. xtau nk apply ke x. semak otak. pk smp demam2. xtau la. ishh semak, phm x?? due date 28th December. hmm.

tanye mama, papa n acu. sume kate apply je la. kalo dapat, terima x terima blkng cite. yang penting ada backup. mmg dalam otak dah ade 1 plan, but if plan tu xjadi? so kene la ade plan laen kn. hmm tah la. ishh b******* la bnde ni!!!! xsuke btol pk2 ni. benci!! benci!!

xsukeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!

b.e.n.c.i

unsure.plans (well, name pon plans kan)

2009-12-12T02:10:00.003+08:00

Assalammualaikum W.B.T...

im not sure what to write. what to babble about. i guess my hands just wanna write. see, still not making any point here. hmm.

still waiting for the fair. asked few friends, but they were not sure either. google-ing later. my post earlier, about my results, it was, well :) senyum sampai ke telinga la kiranye.

so,
while watching tv, papa datang menemani. conversation goes....

adik: pa, disebabkan results adik yg cambest tu, pe kate adik buat 1 permintaan, leh x?
pa : ha depends. ape dia?
adik: apa kate papa sponsor yg tickets tu? leh x?
pa : *silence* ha ok.
adik: seriously??? betul ni??? *jumping cam org gila dah*
pa : ha betul. but bukan pegi terus la. go 4 vacations.
adik: ala..nnt kene patah lik patah lik.
pa : abistu xkn nk gi terus? wat ever it is, finish ur degree first.
adik: ok tu 4 sure la kn. but btol ni? xtipu?
pa : ha betul. u've worked hard 4 it.

*end of conversation (but still jumping)*

then,
cam terpikir..after syahim dah tido, berlambak2 bnde masuk dalam otak ni..boleh ke? yakin ke?

lame kot. bukan sehari dua. tapi ni masa depan. masih lagi xdecide. family sume support. tapi diri sendiri? ready ke? tibe2 popped out bnde ni dari kotak fikiran. takot. takot ape pon xsure gk. indecisive. tinggal ticket je. restu dah dapat. klo jadi, ticket mama papa li kan. tempat tinggal ade. makan pon sedia. cuma tinggal NAK dgn TAKNAK je. hmm.

apa yg dirisaukan?

hmm..

sumpah malam ni down..

hmm..

result

2009-12-11T11:40:00.002+08:00

Assalammualaikum W.B.T...

semua sihat?
smlm gi ikea dgn fmly..
best..
duit pon abes..

tapi bukan duit adik..

duit mama..
hehe..
nanti mama nak belikan BILLY bookcase tu..
yes!!
buku terlalu byk dh..
but xbeli semalam sebab xmuat nak letak dalam kete volvo tu..
hanger yg multipurpose pon mama belikan..
syg mama!!
tgh bayar kat cashier, farah called..
farah kate result dah kua..
demmit!
cuak..
call syahim..
mintak dia tgk kn result..
lambat..
jammed..
bese la, student uitm bukan sorg 2..
tbe2 syahim tepon adik..
dia ckp adik dapat 3._ _..
sgt sgt sgt sgt sgt sgt sgt sgt sgt sgt terkejut!!!
sepanjang blaja dari diploma, result ni is the second highest yg penah adik dapat!!
paper susa kot! but xsangka..
syukur alhamdulillah.. :)
time kasih mama, papa, abg2, kakak2 ipar n syahim..
sumenye bg sokongan n byk bg nasihat..
time kasih sgt2 :)
i love u all..
time kasih gak kat naufal..
sbb byk "lukisan2 seni" kat nota2 adik..
tinggal 1 sem lagi..
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p/s: moga semuanya berjalan lancar..insyaAllah..shukran jazilan :')

saya . budak . suka . membebel

2009-11-17T00:46:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum W.B.T...

ahlan wa sahlan? tamat sudah semester 5 ana. shukran jazilan. xkira la apa jua keputusannya. yang penting ana dh jawab dgn sebaiknya (kecuali paper Community Nutrition). bak kata ana pada ain n mai, nutrition dgn ana ada hubungan yg sgt kukuh. susah utk kami break. sejak dari diploma lagi kami "couple". hehee. susah kot paper yg berkaitan dgn nutrition sgala bgai ni. xsuka. paper ctu ana pon teruk gk. objective questions tah macam apa. carry mark teruk. plg rendah dlm klz. mungkin sbb test ana teruk kot. test ana amek after 1 day arwah adik pergi. so xleh masuk dlm otak apa yg ana baca. xpe la. ada hikmah nya kot.

aritu rakan ana ni gedik. hee. tbe2 send msg dgn sgt pjg. mintak tlg ttg 1 perkara. katanya dia xsedap hati ttg seseorg ni. nk tnye tuan punya bdn, katanya mls. xtnye, hati dia yg skt. ana pun pelik dgn budak tu. heee. camne dia leh rasa cm ada bnde yg xkena pd "seseorg" tu? xpelik ke? apa pon, ana pon tlg la dia. anta msg ym pd org tu. rasanya cm xde mslh kot. jgn risau ye mkcik ;) ana tau anti masih sygkan dia. *hugs* moga anti kuat. insyaAllah.

ana borak dgn sorg kawan ana ni. ttg dia dan isi hati dia. betapa perit nya hati dia perlu lalui apa yg dia lalui skg. sampai leh buat ana nangis kot! kisah yg lebih kurang cam "A rapat dgn B. A mkin suka B. Rupa2nya B ada C". ha gitu la lebih kurang. yg buat ana nangis sebab betapa ana nmpk n leh rasa "perit-tapi-syg" yg dilalui rakan ana ni. bila dia cerita, dada ana cam sesak. ana penah jadi B. ana penah juga jadi A. kan ana dh btau, ana ni kan ermm teruk dulu. bukan nk proud jadi teruk, cuma tah la. perlu ingat. perlu muhasabah diri selalu. ana mintak maaf atas apa jua perlakuan ana. xkisah la pada siapa pon. ana harap rakan ana ni dpt bersabar. let time heals ur heart. mmg susa nk lupakan org yg kita syg, but sometimes, we have too.

bercinta lama2 xmenjamin hubungan yg kekal ke jinjang pelamin. scandal bertuka2 xmenjamin kita dapat yg "terbaik". then apa purpose bercinta kalo tiada jaminan? apa gunanya bertuka2 psgn kononnya utk mencari yg "terbaik" kalo akhirnya bukan "terbaik" yg kita dapat? Allah SWT beri kita akal utk pilih psgn yg baek. aritu, tbe2 ayahanda ana berkata "aritu dgr ceramah ustaz apa tah. lupa nama dia. ustaz tu ckp, "kita sebagai mak bapak pun main peranan dalam pemilihan psgn anak2 kita. memangla budak2 sekarang ni bebas pilih psgn mereka. bukan macam zaman2 kita dulu. pasangan kita mak ayah kita yg pilihkan. TETAPI, kalau dah anak awak perempuan, datang si bakal menantu tindik telinga kiri kanan, seluar koyak2, rambut warna merah, kenapa tak ditegah? kenapa tak dihalang? dan kenapa pula lelaki sebegitu yg anak kita pilih utk dijadikan suami? semua tu harus fikir semula. mana silap nya". faham x apa yg ana cuba jelaskn? seseorg yg baik utk seseorg yg baik. pilih la yg baik. tapi mana tau yg baik ke x? yg tidak membelakangkan agama. asas kukuh, semua nya jadi sempurna. diiringi dgn doa.

ha cerita pasal doa ni pon ada kisahnya. bak kata ummi (besan mama), "kita ni perlu sentiasa doa pada Allah. Minta apa yg kita nak. stiap usaha harus diiringi dgn doa.bila berdoa tu, doa secara specificnya" betul tu. kita kan hambaNya. sentiasa la berdoa. doa yg baek2. bukan doa org kene langgar kete. bila berdoa ni pon kena la btol2. specific. tahu sejarah Nabi Adam dan Hawa? org slalu doa smoga dipertemukan jodoh ibarat Allah pertemukan Nabi Adam dan Hawa. tapi anta n anti semua tahukah sejarah disebaliknya? Allah pertemukan mereka selepas 40 thn terpisah. mereka "dihukum", kan? selepas mereka "dicampak", after 40 years baru Allah pertemukan mereka. sorg umat Allah, hari2 berdoa, moga dipertemukan jodoh ibarat Adam dan Hawa. ketika umo si polan bin si polan ni mencecah usia 41 thn, baru dia berkahwin. bertemu dgn jodohnya. dgn izin Allah, doa kalian diperkenan. tapi kalau boleh, biar lah dgn jelas dan detail. wallahualam.

dah xtau pe nk tulis. to abg n family, be prepared kalo2 earth quake melanda lagi. 5.0 RC tu kira teruk gak tau. risau. but atleast, update us ok. insyaAllah, on DECEMBER 3rd, we'll be waiting 4 u guys. cant wait.

sehingga bertemu lagi. chewah! gituuuuu~

p/s: pesanan dibawah hanya utk bf sy. klo anda bukan bf sy, jgn bc ye :)

p/s: b, i know u'r reading dis. just wanna tell u, i heart u ;) sila datang uma n kembalikan charger saya. saya tau anda mengada2 saja nk sorokkn supaya kite kerap jumpe. hahaha ;)

breakdown.

2009-11-05T17:04:00.000+08:00

Assalammualaikum W.B.T...

ahlan wa sahlan? how are you? hope u'r doing fine. i'm in a terrible state. mentally n physically. say hello to bad flu. say hye to sorrow. i was sitting for my 3rd final exam paper yesterday. Hospitality Research Method. it was....ermmm...50-50. able to answer BUT unconfidently. didn't understand the questions well so i wrote everything i know. i wrote 1 whole page for 5-6 marks. crazy enough. coz i was too afraid. we're talking about 4 credit hours subject, you know. okay. anyhuu. went to SACC with the girlfriends. ela belanje weh!! *maklum la, bila single, duit dicurahkan kat kawan2 je kan? kan ela kan? i hope u single forever n be my friend forever ;) * she treated us with 3 regular pizzas, garlic bread and etc. full kot! shukran jazilan. ana ucapkan jutaan terima kasih atas kesudian anti blanje ana. trime kasih ye. shukran.

i reached home around 5. it was ok, until maghrib. i was alone in my room. all of sudden, images of arwah adik flashing through my head. remember my post about him? when i missed to see his face for the last time? few days after that, actually, arwah's mom gave me her phone. then she says "tengok lah. mama amek gambar ni waktu dah mandikan jenazah kat hospital. mama rasa mama perlu tunjuk kat ain. bukan untuk buat ain lagi sedih, tapi taknak ain rasa terkilan tak sempat tengok aritu". those photos flashed through my head. i was deeply, seriously, emotionally breakdown. i cried. cried really hard. i felt like someone just ripped off my heart. the pain was unbearable. it's like so many things i wanna tell him. so many things i wanna share with him. i was totally weak. i needed someone. i texted nadia. i texted farah too. both knew how close i was with arwah. they helped me indeed. thanx. so much. so much. i texted arwah's mom too. she was worried about me. i'm in the middle of exam kan. but she managed to give her words of wisdom. wah! gituuuu. bukan lah wisdom sangat, but clearly able to make the pain go. read the messages from 3 of them once again, and i felt asleep.

i woke up for my subuh prayer, tu diaaaa. mata ceq bengkak gila habaq hang! have u ever watch ed the movied called "HITCH''? the part when will smith had his allergy? swollen eyes and lips? my eyes were slightly smaller than that. hahaha. terrible isn't it? barely open my eyes! but it began to subside. shukran :)

i'm kinda facing the war right now. battle in my own world. unable to stand straight. unable to say how i feel. unable to open my heart. i prefer to keep everything inside me. let me feel the pain. alone. only when i REALLY can't do it on my own, i'll share it with my girlfriends. Uitm n Subang girlfriends. not that i'm trying to show to other people that i'm strong. as a matter of fact, i'm not. i'm not strong. i can still remember i cried really bad in the prayer room in Penang. i was so down, cried teribbly and mai came. she hugged me. calm me down. ain did that too. nomi too. (ida ati keraih sket. takdak nak pi pujuk2 oghang ni. tapi dia rajen pujuk dalam msg). atleast they were there for me. when i'm in Subang, nadia ada, nabila ada. shukran jazilan. i have my real friends.. :) but in the case of yesterday, i did't want to disturb the girls in PA. dorang ade paper. esok pon. gudluck ladies!!

due to this whole crying thing, i managed to get this bad flu. now i can't study for my paper this sunday. idung lari. *running nose. get it? i'm trying to be funny here. so LAUGH!* doakan ana cepat sehat ye. supaya tiada lagi lelehan mukus yg terkeluar dari idung ana lantas terjatuh di muka2 surat buku Community Nutrition ni. doakan ana leh jawab utk last 2 papers ni ye. doakan kesihatan ana ye. doakan kejayaan ana ye.

sehingga kite bertemu kembali. insyaAllah.

p/s: lagi sebulan lebih akan JANUARY 1st, 2010. MasyaAllah. tak sabar nya! :)

....

2009-11-03T00:16:00.000+08:00

so many things to say...

so many things left unsaid..

gotta wait for the time to come...

for me to say it all...

p/s: saudara munzir, tahukah anda bahawa ain jeles anda gi tgk MOCCA aritu? :( ujan kan time tu..im stuck at my study table..final exam..gotta wait for their next performances..nice pics, though..i loike..n lovin ur profile picture too, Mr. Adam-Nur-Kasih-look-alike..dun forget to drink lots of CEO coffee..terrified hearing lots of health probs lately..havent seen aunty 4 quite some time..where did she go? AND WHY AM I P/S-ING TO U?haha..sory senior..hohooo..

2009-10-23T19:36:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum W.B.T...

final exam is just around d corner. yet, nothing is done. i mean, no past year exam paper, no revision, no nothing. PROCRASTINATION. seriously, im very good at it. haiihh. anyhuu, dats not the main topic for this post. hee. well, wat do u understand by d word "FRIEND"? anyone? im sure u have gazillions of frens. true frens? 1 or 2 or 3 or none. my true frens? *paused*

true frens would tell u wat u did wrong.
true frens would support u wen u r down.
true frens would push u to be better than before.

i used to be so sure about my true frens list. but now, i gotta think hard, deep. way deep. deeper n harder. coz wen im in position of needing someone(true frens) really bad, they were not there 4 me. funny but true. in d end, i turned to my bf. not to say dat he's not my true fren, its just dat there are times wen u need ur frens instead of ur other half. somehow, he was there to lift me up *thanx my dear*

izit because of the "distance" that make our frenship to turn sour? no i doubt dat. my dearest bacen *nadia* was there 4 me. she's in UTM skudai somemore. *only lately she's a bit bz with her fyp*. but wat im tryin to say is, being apart from u DOES NOT mean u shud stop being d true fren, tol x?? *eh esmos lak*

u r so near yet so far. u r so kind yet so cruel. i hate u. i do. in a split second, u turn into someone i barely knew. u r mean. mean enough to hurt my feelings.

by as far as i know, u r happy..

happy with ur life now..

so i guess, i can live with that.

because...

u r still in my "true frens" list....

p/s: empty

new.couple

2009-10-22T17:46:00.000+08:00

AMRIE AKEEB

IN A RELATIONSHIP WITH

IZUEEN NORDIN..

p/s: I LOIKE IT!!! ;) Congratz korg!!! :)

the.learning.process

2009-10-21T23:03:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum W.B.T..

I've been in a 2-year relationship. all the good and somehow bad memories. his name was teeeett. as if u guys didn't know. apparently, if u read my blog, clearly u know him, don't you? anyhuu.. truth to be told, i started d relationship not in a right way. somehow he was someone else's. i was mean. i was cruel. i was so heartless. *kanye west satuuu siaapp!*

throughout our journey, wow! full of hatred, pain, sad, sgala mak nenek la kan. only small portion was the happiness. nevertheless, we still continue with the relationship. why? i wonder that too. why? till now, unable to find the right answer for it.

towards the end of our relationship, things started to become worst. i was so tired. being cheated, he disrespect me n vice versa, yell at one another. long story short, its our "the end". i was indeed living in a painful life but hell yeah, life goes on.

now i'm with someone else. i'm happy with him. he's such a nice guy. but my previous one helped me to be the new-better nurul ain noorafudin. the mistakes i've done during my past relationship, i took that as a learning process. mistakes are not meant to be repeated, remember? thank you to you. now that i'm happy with my current relationship, u r part of it. i'm sure u'll find someone else that suits u better. insyaAllah.

anyway, starts your relationship in a gud way, appropriate way, nice way. everyone deserves to be happy. but not by destroying other's relationship. i've learnt my lesson. now it's ur turn. ends ur relationship NOW if u feel that it can no longer be saved. hurting someone NOW is better than being afraid of hurting her/him later.

i'm no love guru, but i do experienced all that crappy-nonsense- eye-opening stories. don't hold any grudges to ur exes. because what u r now is because of them too *only if u change to be better than before*

p/s: mohammad syahim is my man :)

Al- Fatihah...

2009-09-09T22:55:00.000+08:00

September 9th, 2009...

di kitchen..
"ishh..pedih semacam la mate ni"

then,
i received a msg from fatin..

"kak ain, fatin ni..fatin nk btau yg abbil meninggal pg tadi.."

:'(

Ahmad Abbil bin Abdullah..
arwah adalah adikku..
anak angkat family ku..
aku merupakan kakak angkat arwah,
aku anak angkat familynya..
arwah pgl my parents mama papa..
aku pgl parents arwah mama papa..
kami rapat..terlalu rapat..

terus lik after kol fatin..en salim kate ok..out me go from kitchen..drive cm org...tah la..xtau nk kate pe..menangis xberhenti..smp uma, mama tunggu kat dpn uma..mama peluk kuat..
siap2 terus g umah arwah..masuk rumah jumpe mama, mama terus peluk.."mama xde no fon ain..arwah pulak henfon dia rosak..tanye kak long(kakak arwah) kalo2 dia ade nombor ain, but still xtau cene nk cntact n btau..maafkn ma..." *berpelukan smbil menangis..*

arwah meninggal saat dia bawak moto menuju ke tempat practicalnye di SAPURA..terbabas, treler petronas kebetulan lalu lantas....hmmm..alhamdulillah sekadar terhantuk je..bukan digilis..*sperti yg dilaporkan di utusan.utusan bodo*

post mortem habis kul6 lebih..aku lik uma utk berbuka..sesudah solat mghrib, terus g uma arwah..ternyata aku terlewat bbrp minutes..xsempat melihat wajahnye utk terakhir kalinye..aku redha..aku terima..

ikot gerak g tanah perkuburan usj 20..

sayunye masyaAllah..seorg bapa mencangkul tanah utk kambus kubur anaknya..ya Allah..sedih sgt..sesudah mama, papa, kak long, abg idan n qila siram air mawar+bunga2, nani(gf arwah) pula menyiram..kemudian kak long suh aku pergi siram gak..aku refused..sbb takot xleh nk cntrol..kak long ckp "just go..show him dat u love him.."..mama pon suruh gak..

i walked slowly..ambil jug air from moolah(besfren arwah)..then aku siram sket2..sedih tapi tenang..nani dh lik..nani dh xdpt nk control lagi dh..org lain pon dh lik..*thanks farah, fatin, zhrh - u girls were there 4 me*

sedih tgk papa hugged abg idan after sume org dh lik..sedih sgt2..hmm..then 3 hari berturut2 fmly arwah buat kenduri tahlil..everythg went well..

"arwah dh selamat, kita ni lom tentu lagi..." che zah says..che zah is one of arwah's aunt yang close with me..moga arwah slamat disana..only Allah knows how much i love him......

p/s: sepasang telekung n sebentuk cincin emas putih menjadi kenangan..

gara - gara....

2009-09-04T15:57:00.000+08:00

gara-gara apek ku balik,
kami keluar berjalan-jalan..

gara-gara balang kueh dah abes,
kami pergi cari balang..

gara-gara cuaca panas setelah dpt balang,
kami pergi ke Pavillion..

gara-gara mahu cari baju,
kami pergi ke Zara..

gara-gara Zara xde yg best2,
kami pergi ke Forever 21..

gara-gara Forever 21 tiada scarf yg cantek2 cm kat sunway,
kami duk kat kepenatan di bangku..

gara-gara hari sudah lewat,
kami pergi ke store laen..

gara-gara ternmpk Pull and Bear,
kami masuk ke store ni..

gara- gara kemasukan kami,
kami keluar dgn keadaan wallet kami yg menipis pd kadar mendadak..

gara-gara ini,
diriku kekurangan duit..
dlm tempoh beberapa jam, hilang RM*00
T.O.L.O.N.G!

oleh itu, aku perlu belajar berjimat..

p/s: tetapi sy anne, xreti berjimat =( ajar diriku~

KHAS UTK NUN DI NEW ZEALAND....

2009-09-01T17:14:00.000+08:00

CD from NZ arrived this morning...

watched it with abg yel, pakcik n acik...

ol of us cudnt stop crying... :'(

we miss ol of u sooooooo much...

received the card also..

nice hand writing, abg..so called lelaki melayu terakhir a.k.a KEANU REEVES??? u've got to be kidding, dear ;)

alya speaks gud english too..

aida, wow...makin cantek..jgn stop maen archery tau =)

aisya.."aisya xleh jadi drama queen byk2 sgt"---> owh kamon..we noe u dear..

nice moves btw ;)

dear mummy, only Allah knows how much we miss u...miss u teribbly..

pakcu, *hem*..hahaha...

rajin2 anta surat n cd lagi k..=)

p/s: dgr cite nk sponsor ayel n ayu g honeymoon kat sne next year..TUNGGU la..till pertghn thn dpn..bulan 6 or 7 nnt, adik nk g sane gak..klo bulan 4, duit xfull lagi..eh? eh? eh? ;)

Cookies =)

2009-08-28T07:11:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum Wbt..

It's raining...alhamdulillah..sejuk =)
Saya jual cookies, anda tahu kah?
heee..
I'm selling Chocolate Chip with Walnut Cookies for this upcoming Raya..
I wanted to sell the cookies, mom's-secret-recipe of Kek Lapis and pineapple tart..
But due to time constraint, cancel sume tu..jual cookies je la ;)

So if u wanna order this cookies, do contact me at this number k...

+6013.6357.316

~ RM 20 only
~ approximately 60 pieces (60-65 pieces) *kalau kecik2*
~ approximately 50 pieces *standard size*

p/s: not only for raya, but for other
occasions too..ex: weddings, utk buat makan sendiri PON BOLEY, etc.. but for big occasions, let me know earlier k..insyaAllah, boleh ditunaikan permintaan itu =)

M.A.A.F

2009-08-25T06:00:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum Wbt..

Alhamdulillah..bersahur dgn sederhana..sedap pulak mama masak ikan bilis tumis tu..simple..dan sedap =)

M.A.A.F..

perkataan yg sukar utk dilafazkan tetapi sgt mudah utk menerimanya..mengapa ye? Tepuk dada tanya iman(Noor M, 2009). So many things happened 4 d past few weeks. Marah, tak suke, bengang, skt ati..semuanya ada. Lebih malang apabila tidak dapat menegakkan kebenaran or seek for answers hanya semata2 demi menjaga kepentingan rakan, hubungan rakan, perasaan rakan. Pain. Too much pain. Lebih2 lagi apabila fitnah mula menular.

"Ya Allah..bila masa pulak aku ckp camtu?"

"Siapa yg buat cerita ni?"

"Mana pulak datangnya cerita ni?"

Too many questions were asked but none of it with answers. Lebih2 lagi apabila perkara seperti "kau-jangan-bgtau-org-yg-aku-bgtau-kau-hal-ni" berlaku byk kali. Bila perkara tu tersebar(which clearly not from me), aku jua yg dipersalahkan. Mungkin org yg btau aku tu sendiri gi btau org lain kot. Hmm..Wallahualam..manusia ni kadang2 pelik sket. Cakap xserupa bikin kan.

"Mungkin ada dalang atas ape yg jadi ni,anne"

Jika benar, apa tujuan dalang tu buat camtu?

Wallahualam. 1 lagi soklan tanpa jawapan. At times, thinking of finding the answers, walau ke lubang cacing sekalipon. Sebab, yelah. Situasi nya begini: I may have said thgs that might hurt ur feelings, but that doesnt give u the right to spread untrue stories bout me. So terasa nak sgt utk selesaikan permasalahan yg menjadi problem tu (Salim,2009).

Bila tanya org, consult dgn org, baek rakan or fmly members, semua pon kate minta maaf je la. For my wrongdoing tu kan. And i did. Only a few reply to that. But its ok. Still fine with it =) Mungkin dia rasa dia xsalah or terlupa nak reply msg tu. (POSITIVE THINKING ITU HARUS).

Aku tiada dendam. Amarah aku hilang. Benci aku lupus. Kerana bg diriku, semua membuat kesilapan. Aku pon buat silap kot. Behind all these, byk pengajaran..

Learn how to be a good leader and better control of your crew
Handle situation with patience, not anger
Don't make up stories to get the attention(either from ur frens, ur classmates, or ur partner)
DO NOT twist the words *bahasa kasarnye: jangan cite gebang* kasar ke?
Forgive and forget
When u are in angry mode, just keep quiet.

Sedikit lega apabila berlakunya perkara ni, masih lagi ada rakan yg btul2 bergelar rakan yg memberi sokongan tanpa putus. Terima kasih ye =)

Tidak perlu berumur 25thn baru boleh jadi matang. Kadang2 yg berumur 19thn pon boleh berfikiran lebih matang dari yg berumur 25thn. Minta maaf la pada yg lain sbelum terlambat.

"Dosa kepada Allah hanya boleh dimaafkan olehNya dgn bertaubat, dosa sesama manusia hanya boleh dimaafkan oleh manusia tersebut".. Wallahualam..

Dengan ini, saya meminta maaf juga kiranya terkasar bahasa, tersilap kata, tersalah pandang terhadap anda semua. Kiranya saya ada melakukan kesalahan, tegur la saya agar dapat perbaiki diri.

Ha lagi satu, BERSANGKA BAIK. Jangan mudah sgt dgr cerita org ye. Nasihat ni ditujukan pada diriku juga ;) Sekarang diriku lebih tenang. Kerna apa yg jadi semua ni hanya la secebis dugaan =)

p/s: Naufal dah boleh panggil diriku "cu"..happy sgt. Nikmat Allah bg. Syukur. Xsabar nak tunggu Illyasa' besar lak ;)

=)

2009-08-24T00:37:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum Wbt...

*org sebok nk buat blog, aku pon sebok nk buat blog*

Tq to umynah =)
i blanje u choki2 la eh nanti..

i am not good in writing, though..but i'll try to express my feelings with words, as best as i could..in certain things, i just can't say it loud..maybe by using this medium, it would help me ;)

Ramadhan is here. I am grateful. Alhamdulillah. But sahur semalam and buka tadi makan sorg2 :'( "sembahyang 1 fardhu di bulan Ramadhan ibarat sembahyang 70 fardhu di bulan lain". I've been reading saifulislam.com for the past few days. An eye-opening blog. Seriously. Nak dibandingkan dgn dugaan yg aku lalui, besar lagi dugaan dia. Nak pulak dugaan dia demi mempertahankan Islam, berjihad ilmu. Make me realized that i've been dwelling myself thinkin about unnecessary things(or should i say, duniawi?). Bukanlah unnecessary sgt, cuma perkara kecik je la kan.

Ustazah CTU said, "manusia maksudnya objek yang lupa". Conclude--->pelupa. I may have forgotten to say thank you over small things, i may have exagerrate over tiny things, i may have said things that make any of u feel betrayed, sad or hurt. I am deeply sorry for that. Kufur nikmat. Lupa pada Yang Atas. But with all of this, buat diriku kembali padaNya. Sounds terrible, teringat dan kembali padaNya disaat susah. InsyaAllah x berlaku lagi perkara camni.

"Allah xpernah berjauhan dari kita, cuma kita yg berjauhan dariNya. Allah has better plans for you. Allah knows what is best for you. Trust Allah. Have faith in Allah. Dia xkan duga umatNya dgn dugaan yg xboleh di hadapi oleh umat tu sendiri."

Everytime ada problem, consult dgn mama, n statement above is like must-said things from her ;) i heart u, mama. Tiba2 otak cam blank pulak..Bebel lain kali la ye..

Assalamualaikum Wbt..

~ still waiting for the VIP cd from New Zealand =) ~